Coming back to church, worried about occult and sinful past

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Hello brothers and sisters!

I’m a 24 y.o. male and a new member here.

Don’t know if this is the right forum to post this, but I have a couple of questions about my very convoluted history of all kinds of sin and also decorative house items. Bear with me!!

Long story “short”:
1 - originally sort of christian and a good person
2 - messed up family, childhood and teen years (really long story)
3 - in college, got involved in fornication, weed, porn, astrology and lots of antichristian philosophy as well (Nietzsche, Sartre, Camus, Freud, Cioran, Emperor Julian The Apostate etc)

4 - got tired of the people in my college, changed majors and moved to a different town (also broke with a stupid metal band I had, but continued to listen to death metal daily)
5 - while still searching for truth, I was extremely proud and belligerent (thought that just because I’m smart and pretty I somehow deserved praise etc complete bs)
6 - also continued my sinful behaviors and started to dabble with roman mythology and religion, medieval astrology, offered a statuette and a couple of roses to “venus” (???) and got some pretty girls in return (don’t know if this actually worked but it definitely seemed like it did and I do regret it a lot)
7 - a whole year of TERRIBLE SORROWS went by, routinely thought of killing myself (but I reconnected with my mom at Christmas and promised her I wouldn’t do it, so here I am folks!)

8 - stumbled upon the great SAINT THOMAS AQUINAS!!!
9- binged on christian books and videos on the existence and unicity of God, the Resurrection of Jesus Christ etc
10 - realized my childhood faith was right all along
11 - spent months crying and repenting of the many evils I’ve done
12 - began to feel like I’m not alone in my own apartment (also bats entered the apartment three times, despite the windows being closed)
13 - I still haven’t gotten baptized or confirmed in church, but plan on doing so when the covid quarantine ends (I have been praying a lot tho and I’m getting better day by day, feeling like I’m regaining the purity in my heart and my childhood innocence)

So… that’s the “context”.

QUESTION IS: I’ve got a couple of books that maybe I shouldn’t have, and paintings of Mephistopheles (from Faust) and Satan (from Paradise Lost) on my wall, and some house decoration that I used in my stupid esoteric “explorations”.

Are demons and evil spirits real? Should I be worried? Should I throw all this stuff away? I like to rationalize that the satanic paintings are a reminder that evil is present everywhere. Also, I quite like the statuette I’ve “offered” to “venus” (super cringe I know). Can I like “recover” it to from the demon (it there really is such a thing)? It’s a beautiful replica of Michelangelo’s David and I would hate to throw it away.

What do you think?
Pray for me friends!
God bless you all!
 
Lots of people do immature things when they are young. Sometimes we like to try to hang on to objects like you mentioned from our past. Just get rid of them and move on. Those objects will not help you do anything in the future despite your attempts to justify keeping them - and that really doesn’t even have anything to do with their occult nature.
KingDavid said:
also bats entered the apartment three times, despite the windows being closed)
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This happened to me one time. Nothing to do with demons. Bats are almost like mice in that they are good at finding their way inside, but unlike mice they are not really intending to.
 
Yes, Satan and demons are real.

Since you say that you are not baptised then you should check in for RCIA and try to find a priest for talk about all this, to advise you about what exactly you should do. Of course if you want it.
Actually it is not cringe but a real offering to demon. It can be recovered but I think that you should speak to catholic priest on that (also it is important to find someone who believes in such things). More important thing than “recovering it from demon” is that you should destroy those stuff, because they are imfestated, so noone should use them, it wouldn’t be good if someone finds it somewhere thrown. In the end if it doesn’t bring any good fruits why to possess it.
Books you can burn and do not throw ashes in house but burry it ground or throw it in river if you have some close.

God loves you with endless love and never forget that. That love cannot be changed no matter what sinns you did. He is happy because you want to come to Him. Don’t be afraid because Christ died for you and for your sinns!
You are precious and valuable in God’s eyes!

I recommend you to pray to Blessed Virgin Mary, ask her for help, protection and guidance in your conversion. Try to get Miraculous Medal and ask priest to bless it, wear it around your neck.

Please try to find suitable priest to deal with all this as soon as possible.
You are in my prayers!!
 
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First, welcome!
Second, do not complicate it.

If you decide to enter the Catholic Church, your past goes as follows:
  1. Confession.
  2. What past?
 
God is always there for you, with open arms.

Throw out the statutes & junkola. They are symbols of things you must turn away from completely. No good will come from hanging on to them. As the Bible tells us, no one can serve 2 masters. You can’t serve God and have a soft spot in your heart for the trappings of occultism/devil worship. Just pitch it and don’t look back.

Yes, demons are real. Stay as far away from them as possible.
 
Welcome back home to the Church! I will pray for you and hope you can get in touch with a priest as soon as COVID ends so you can be properly baptized and catechized.

Just throw all the demonic stuff away in the garbage. You’ll feel better not having to look at it.

You can keep the statue of David if and only if you can simply appreciate it as a piece of art, from the artist who also painted the Sistine Chapel Ceiling in the Vatican and made many other holy works - He certainly wouldn’t appreciate you offering his stuff to “Venus” who doesn’t even exist anyway, she’s made up. Throw some holy water on it if you want. Maybe when you look at it say the Our Father.
If the statue of David continues to remind you of your sin, give it away - someone else will appreciate it just for being a replica of a famous artist’s work.

Pray for the intercession of Our Mother Mary, St. Joseph, St. Benedict and St. Michael, and they will help you.
Also, ask Blessed Bartolo Longo to pray for you. He was from a good family but drifted away to become a Satanic High Priest. He realized his mistake and came back to the Church, now he’s beatified “Blessed” and one day hopefully will be a canonized Saint of the Church.
If Blessed Bartolo could overcome his past, so can you!

 
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There is nothing wrong with being interested in things like art, literature, philosophy, psychoanalysis, and history. I think you are mixing up a few different things here. You are right to identify drugs and pornography as bad influences in your life.

However, you do not need to be worrying because you have a replica of one of the most celebrated works of art if the entire Renaissance, for example.

There is also nothing wrong with educating yourself about some of the most important thinkers in the history of western civilization. Although many of his ideas have been thoroughly discredited (e.g. penis envy, castration anxiety, the Oedipus complex, the ego, the id, and the superego, etc.), Freud remains one of the most influential thinkers of the 19th and 20th centuries. There cannot possibly be anything wrong with trying to understand his seminal ideas and enduring legacy.
 
I have an occult past too. Sometimes saying a St. Michael prayer helps. Remember that the enemy wants to shake your faith. Stay focused on God and be not afraid.
 
You ought to read the Pope’s homily from Divine Mercy Sunday. It is awesome.
http://www.vatican.va/content/franc...cesco_20200419_omelia-divinamisericordia.html

At one time, [St. Faustina], with satisfaction, told Jesus that she had offered him all of her life and all that she had. But Jesus’ answer stunned her: “You have not offered me the thing that is truly yours”. What had that holy nun kept for herself? Jesus said to her with kindness: “My daughter, give me your failings” (10 October 1937). We too can ask ourselves: “Have I given my failings to the Lord? Have I let him see me fall so that he can raise me up?” Or is there something I still keep inside me? A sin, a regret from the past, a wound that I have inside, a grudge against someone, an idea about a particular person… The Lord waits for us to offer him our failings so that he can help us experience his mercy.
 
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I was involved with the occult before converting. One confession later and that was all in the past.
 
The Lord is kind and merciful. But just, too.
Your sins can be forgiven in the Sacrament of Confession.
 
Welcome, friend! God bless you and I’ll include you in my prayers.
 
Welcome back friend, and peace be with you.

I also went through a pretty sinful past before returning to the Church. One thing that I highly recommend is praying the Rosary everyday. You will be completely detached from the desire of all your past activities if you persist, and any spiritual harassment will quickly find resolution.

God bless you friend.
 
Hi! Our Lord rescued me from years of the occult too, different parts of Hinduism, drugs, all that.
I too suffered a great deal in the midst of it. It was a mucky sticky time.
I met with a priest and asked every question I could think of.
He suggested theCrystal’s, stones, I had I should get rid of because I used them for different rituals or whatever.
It was kind of hard letting go but it was freeing.
The books I threw away, I could have burned them but didnt think of it.
The catholic faith is so rich! Dont look back !
The occult and witchcraft ravage today.
Be a soldier for Christ
The harvest is abundant but the laborers are few
God bless
 
Demons most certainly are real, and they are the realities behind the pagan gods. All forms of the occult invoke demons, either explicitly or implicitly.
 
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Throw it all out, burn the books and art, shatter the statues no holding back!
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I was guessing that this was satire, but maybe not. It would seem absolutely tragic to burn copies of the works of the likes of Nietzsche, Freud, and the emperor Julian or to destroy illustrations to the works of Goethe and Milton.
 
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I was guessing that this was satire, but maybe not.
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I understand it if you cannot bring yourself to believe in the demonic yourself, but don’t you think it is a little irresponsible to give advice to others about this when the Church teaches otherwise? Any exorcist would say that occult art of any kind needs to be destroyed.
 
Yes throw that stuff away. You don’t need anything reminding you of previous sins around so whether it is evil in and of itself is immaterial Of course its wise to buy a Catholic bible online and begin reading it, I suggest the new testament just because it might be easier to start with but really whatever calls to you. A good person to follow on YouTube to learn your faith is Fr Mike as he is very good at teaching the basics.

Look up where your local catholic church is and see if they stream mass and watch it to get used to the priest and parish. See if they are open for confession and private prayer if so arrange this. God bless you and welcome home. Many people have a occult background even people who have gone on to be great catholic apologists or even priests. Gods mercy is that great.
 
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