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JCPhoenix
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Some time ago I finally attended Confession after 10 years…I had moved away from the Church (I was Catholic, but not practicing), and I had realized that I needed to reconcile myself again. I had been wanting to go to Confession for a long period of time…at least 3 years prior, but I was terrified. So one day I resolutely determined that I would go to confession. I went to a Penance Mass at a church I’d never attended before…mostly because the mass fit my schedule. It was a Penance service with individual confessions at the end, and as I stood in line I couldn’t keep from crying. They’d passed out a sheet listing numerous venial and mortal sinse, asking for an inventory…all for self reflection.
I realized that 10 years had built up a HUGE crust of sinful behavior and I had already begun to change my life for the better, but I really was sure that the priest hearing my confession would be shocked at what I had to say.
He noticed my tears immediately (how could he not?) and asked me what was wrong. I told him it had been 10 years and that I was a horrible human being. I cited the inventory they’d passed out and he told me that it was OK to make a general confession. I’m not sure he heard all of what I said to him so ever since then I have felt that I have not truely been absolved.
Now I’m actually in that same boat again, altought not so long, this time. I have made major progress in my reconciliation and penance and I have made great strides in changing my life. But I NEED to go to confession but every time I consider it I begin to cry and I think my emotion is getting in the way…I am truely sorry for my sins and literally try every day to overcome them, but this is keeping me from the sacrament…how do I overcome this hurdle and get myself to Confession. I am already planning to go next weekend, but I’m terrified I will chicken out and stay home.
Does anyone have any advice? Has anyone had any similar experiences? If the priest didn’t hear the sin I confessed, was it still forgiven?
I realized that 10 years had built up a HUGE crust of sinful behavior and I had already begun to change my life for the better, but I really was sure that the priest hearing my confession would be shocked at what I had to say.
He noticed my tears immediately (how could he not?) and asked me what was wrong. I told him it had been 10 years and that I was a horrible human being. I cited the inventory they’d passed out and he told me that it was OK to make a general confession. I’m not sure he heard all of what I said to him so ever since then I have felt that I have not truely been absolved.
Now I’m actually in that same boat again, altought not so long, this time. I have made major progress in my reconciliation and penance and I have made great strides in changing my life. But I NEED to go to confession but every time I consider it I begin to cry and I think my emotion is getting in the way…I am truely sorry for my sins and literally try every day to overcome them, but this is keeping me from the sacrament…how do I overcome this hurdle and get myself to Confession. I am already planning to go next weekend, but I’m terrified I will chicken out and stay home.
Does anyone have any advice? Has anyone had any similar experiences? If the priest didn’t hear the sin I confessed, was it still forgiven?