Hi LivingWaters,
Let me put in my two cents. You have received advice from ex-LDS and Catholics up to this point but of course as an active LDS member I have a different perspective. So let me give my thoughts which here no doubt will be questioned in every regard.
Let me write just for a moment about the Book of Mormon. This book claims to contain the word of the Lord and the testimonies of those who have seen Him. It is their personal witnesses of him. If it is true, through their words one may come to know how to approach God. It then would be the most important book to come to light since the Bible cannon was deemed closed.
Few here will agree with me on the above point because they claim it is all a fabrication. But I have yet to see an adequate explanation for the actual content of this book from anyone who doesn’t believe it is a translation of an ancient record. Oh they may comment about DNA, the method of translation, or the lack of physical external evidences. Such things concern me very little. Time will bring the truth of these matters out.
But what of the words it contains? This is what matters! Many who comment about it have not even read the book from beginning to end, much less studied it. Those who have left the church have read it more completely but I think they are untrue to what they have read. This book is much more complex then they give it credit for. They try to pass it off by saying most of it is the Bible repackaged, or that it contains repetitious phrases like, “it came to pass” over and over again. Please, what a pathetic and absolutely unfair representation of this book. It is complex and filled with Hebrew poetry. It is absolutely stuffed with insight about God. Joseph Smith could not have written this book. Nor could he with the small combination of people he associated with. If this book is what it claims to be, a record of an ancient peoples dealings with the Lord, then it should be welcomed by any serious seeker of truth, not rejected out of hand.
Moreover, I have not seen anyone who is able to convincingly argue that the three or eight witnesses did not see the gold plates. Oh they try and point out that Martin Harris saw it with his “spiritual eyes” but they ignore the many other comments he made. They try and bring doubt about the written testimonies in the front of the book but they ignore all other statements. These men, to their dying day, testified they had seen the plates.
Anyone who leaves the church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints must ignore the contents of the Book of Mormon, even as they stumble over it on the way out.
Now, just a word about truth. If you feel by the testimony of the spirit that you have found a better way…. If the Book of Mormon, the Doctrine & Covenants, the Temple, and doctrines of the LDS church seem false… Then I say, follow the spirit of truth as you find it. Joseph Smith once said, “It is a love of liberty which inspires my soul—civil and religious liberty to the whole of the human race. Love of liberty was diffused into my soul by my grandfathers while they dandled me on their knees. …If I esteem mankind to be in error, shall I bear them down? No. I will lift them up, and in their own way too, if I cannot persuade them my way is better; and I will not seek to compel any man to believe as I do, only by the force of reasoning, for truth will cut its own way.” (History of the Church, 5:498–99) This is my continued search, and if it is yours I feel confident that at some future day we will yet see eye to eye.