For me
acquired or
active contemplation (as opposed to pure divinely given infused contemplation) is
watching.
It is to simply watch my normal psychological state, with my interior impulse focused upon God in a non-discursive manner, that is, without conjuring any image of Him or His attributes, or speaking to Him in any respect. By watching, I see thoughts, feelings and emotions come and go like birds flitting around. I do not try to stop these distractions, I merely
watch them and let them go, gently returning to my thoughtless attention towards God without any particular thought or idea about who or what God is.
I do this in silence, both within and without. I sit still and watch, wait and focus in this way.
Sometimes, I become aware of
something that is
not my normal psychological state. There is something deeper, an emptiness or bare space in my soul where thoughts, feelings and forms don’t “peek” in, even for a second. I find a certain somewhere within me that is neither
this nor * that * and cannot really be understood rationally, where the thoughts that make up my everyday psychology become like ripples that I am aware of but which have no impact upon this still, inner region of my awareness.
Its as if I am at the bottom of the lake, gazing up detached-like at all these thoughts and mental images rippling around on the surface. I am aware of them yet they don’t bother me or move me in any way from these depths.
This part of my mind does not use discursive thought but is concerned only with intuitive knowledge of God not influenced by sense perceptions. It requires me to become observant of the story going on in my head, the myth I tell about my self for self-assurance, such as, “I am such and such and I deserve such-and such” or “I need” this, or “I want” this from God or other people. I need to realize that in God I will find my rest, not in these desires. Contemplation helps me to cease identifying with the story in my head and just “be”.
Contemplation grounds me in the beauty of the present moment, with all of its potential for meeting God in the here and now.
And I wait for God to “do His thing” in this empty space which is my deepest, inmost self
Sometimes God will fill this emptiness with awareness of his Presence.
The mind is like a screen, upon which various images are played. In its natural state of simplicity, the mind is free from perceptions, images, distracting thoughts and concepts of reality like a clear image perfectly transparent enough to let God shine through without anything covering it. The goal then is to simple “let go” and allow the mind to ease back into its primal state of simplicity. And there we have intuitive knowing, in which God can reveal Himself to us, if He so chooses, spirit to spirit, and even penetrate the empty mirror of our soul with his Divine Light.