Good morning!!
Took me a while to figure out the people on this thread! Lots of letters! But I think I got it. HNA444 asked the original question from a point of view of practicing Catholic with a “determination vs free will” question. JCNMe answered the question based on her knowledge of our faith. Straw Jam (Welcome!) challenges from the point of view of an agnostic Catholic who believes with questions (she/he believes-goes to mass, is Catholic but doubts???). Any of you please correct me if I am wrong here.
My thoughts:
When I tortured myself with these questions in great doubt my sp dir. told me the line “I believe, Lord help my unbelief.” He also said we believe,
but imperfectly since we are human so I was not to worry about being faithful and having doubts at the same time.
Being one prone to depression I realized that if I stayed in my head with these unanswerable questions (like St. Thomas) then I would never look outside myself to the wonderful things in life that point to the love of God (for Thomas it was the Risen Jesus, for us it is Jesus within all people–the gift of life).
So then I asked myself the question, would love do any of those terrible things in a predetermined manner? I loved my kids; would I do such a thing to them? No. Well, if God loves us like children, He probably (but no one knows for sure) would not.
But, will my children climb up a tree and accidentally fall down (free will)? Probably, since my youngest especially is reckless and inquisitive by nature (why he is on 4 hockey teams to keep him busy and out of trouble!). So I decided to leave the unanswerable question alone for my own sanity and take my place as a stupid human and let God be God with the answers.
This is simply how I resolved the issue *for myself./I], right or wrong. Each person has to find his or her own way with this. JCNMe, you are obviously at peace with this… and I think what I just said here is the same or at least similar to what you said.
I hate to write long posts. People tend not to read them. But, I couldn’t find a way to write this one shorter at 6:30 a.m.!

So that’s my two cents. And again, welcome Strawberry Jam and thank you for such a stimulating question HNA444. And thank you for your faith, JCNMe. Later.
Saw this today in scripture and resolved to practice it today: “Let us then pursue what leads to peace and to building up one another.” Romans 14:19 How did I do?

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Thank you !!