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FaithInTheSon
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“So even my most extreme thoughts, I hold tentatively lest they suppose to be extraordinarily extreme.”This is why it took me 11 years.
Throughout the Dark Night I was constantly reminded of the limitations of my own thoughts, and any sinful tendencies were exposed as in floodlight. So even my most extreme thoughts, I hold tentatively lest they suppose to be extraordinarily extreme.
I am capable of giving myself very complex instructions – and for now let’s just say by self-talk – which are very robust in terms of not leaving outs or ambiguities. Turns out I can hardly ever do that in an absolute sense purely from thinking thoughts, but with body language, choreography, even somewhat of a “dance” can help. There’s more than that, but it’s just details of how I did it for myself. I know these things are complex but they do have limits. I know because I found them and sure I still have a bit of purging to do, because after two weeks since my Dark Night was “officially” over (says I anyway) I still feel some effects. Often these manifest as microexpressions but if I’m typing they can get into my fingers, too.
Alan
LOL that was funny.
hang in there man. Remember to apply anti-virus.