I don’t think I hate the Mass as I am trying to discern that myself, but, I know that I hate the Masses. I was RCIA’d in one church. I was happy in that church. It was a Catholic Church, and before I was RCIA’d, I was happy there. When I went through RCIA, it was very general Christian, almost non-Catholic. We were given pages of things to read and I remember one class on the Sacraments, but, learning about Confession was a roll playing skit involving one of the priests and one of the former RCIA members (who was a sponsor) about how she had been told by her neighbour that her neighbour was having an affair and she promised not to tell but she didn’t know what to do. I did NOT learn there that the bread and wine was ACTUALLY flesh and blood. Keep in mind, I did miss two or three classes, but, one would think this would be on the top of the list to mention. One would think this would have been important also since me and a girl around my age were carrying a jug of wine up to the priest. Neither she nor I knew that Mass was obligatory from now on. This was not mentioned as far as either one of us could remember (I learned this from a professor I had and I asked the girl if she knew this and she said no) and we were both there for the two post-Easter classes. AND, when I say generic Christian, VERY generic Christian because when, during the Easter Vigil they were going over the first reading (Genesis 1) and the woman next to me leans over and says, “Geez, how many days ARE there?!” and a little bit later, “Oh, a week. I get it.”
So, I was now a Catholic, and I guess I was happy. I found out from a friend of mine that that church was not very Catholic in decor (circular, baptismal font is huge and communal and has a fountain flowing from it, “Reconcilliation Room”, which I have never been in) and was teased for that. The professor whom I mentioned before came to my Initiation and said that, among other things that were done wrong at that church, nobody kneeled before recieving the Eucharist (they kneeled after, though) and I later found out that this was because the parish started at the gym at a secular high school and, well, who wants to kneel there?
I am invited to other churches, churches who do the Mass more right. One is in Joliet, IL and once I was invited to attend St. John Cantius for the Tridentene Mass in Chicago, IL. I didn’t much care for St. Mary Nativity at first (Joliet) because I had an embarrassing situation there because I didn’t know I had to take the cup when I recieved the blood. The server (female) told me, “You take it.” I didn’t know that’s how it was done and I didn’t know I was worthy to take it. I also didn’t know at that point that I didn’t HAVE to take the blood. I got over that and started to attend there more frequently (it has a 1730 Sunday Mass…perfect if one is not a morning person OR has work on Sunday mornings – no excuse NOT to go). The Cathedral out in Joliet used to have a 1930 or 2000 Teen Mass or such, which was even better for my laziness, but, I just didn’t like it for some reason. I think it was too foreign to me.
Well, Joliet is a bit aways and, to be honest, I was church shopping. I hadn’t been exposed to CAF yet and so I didn’t know that this was looked down upon, but, my one professor, who I esteem very much, said that I needed to go where I was being spiritually nurished. I also wanted to see how the Mass was celebrated all around my area so that I could always find a Mass no matter where I was (and this was also a reason to go to different churches, to see the Mass times in case I missed one elsewhere). I remembered a church in Tinley Park, IL where I was taken by my very pius Great Aunt, and I liked walking to it with her when I was baby sat there (because I HATED every other part of being babysat by her), and I REALLY liked her church. I liked it most of all because if it wasn’t over with in an hour, she would take me and leave (though, maybe that’s just how I remember it; it could be she didn’t want me exposed to the Host, like the early Christians; I don’t think I was misbehaving).
I started going there more often. It wasn’t too bad. Stained glass windows, cruciform shape…still a Reconcilliation Room, though, it did have the option of a partition or a face to face meeting with the priest.
The thing is, at the Tinley Park Church, somebody comes over the speakers before Mass and has us all shake hands with the people around us. It is at this time that the announcements are read. At the Joliet Church, they let lay and religious people (mostly people collecting for something) speak during the time of the Homily. Announcements come right before the benediction there. Also, recently there, there was a polka Mass, that is, a polka band played the songs before and during the Mass. I am not saying it was odd, but, I would have prefered an Emcee with a cute butt accompanying that music assuring me that the Nazi Party is not a threat. At another Church I go to near another Church where I take foreign language lessons, the, “Lamb of God, you take away the sins of the world, have mercy on us” is repeated and repeated and repeated. I don’t know if it is repeated 7 times before we get to, “Grant us peace,” or if is repeated until the priest is done doing what he needs to do for the concecration. When I went to a Church in Oklahoma, we all did hold hands for the, “Our Father.” I am typically given the option to not do so.
I just don’t know what ISN’T legitimately Catholic. Some of these may be abuses, but, some of them may just be preferences. A very while ago (7 years, maybe? Not a very long while, but, not a while) a convert from Lutheranism to Catholicism was on EWTN saying that she liked the uniformity of the Catholic Church because she can go anywhere and it’s the same; at the Lutheran churches there was always something that was a little bit different from the previous church. Some of these churches are more reverant in some things than in others. A lot of the modern churches are generic and modern and uninspiring, inside and out. No precious materials make the building holy, super little holy objects (though the one I was catechized in did have relics of the saint after which it is named), that is, probably only the Stations of the Cross…small and placed unobstructively, no holy space/layout, that is, more circular or hex, sex, sept, oct, nov, or dec -agonal in shape. CLEARLY, too, people know more than I do at the masses, because I wasn’t taught all the prayers and so when something, even at these churches, is said in Latin (typically during Christmas or Easter) or a different prayer than the one I am used to is used, I am lost. AND, how did I learn the prayers in the first place? Was it from RCIA? No, again, it was just picking up what I could at every Mass.