The question was about you specifically. I was not asking about your father.Now he was a believer. If it had been Jesus as opposed to a china dalmation, would he have believed it was real?
I do not recall that specific, but your claim that the question is unanswerable is very telling.You say I need faith which I would need to want in the first instance. And I say I need proof, which denies the need for faith and is not available in any case. So the question really is unanswerable.
At least you are open enough to admit there is no convincing you.