I better understand your situation, thank you for the background. Perhaps one of your objections to GOD the Father is that you have never experienced âa fatherâ on an intimate level. The relationship of a father to his children is very grounding allowing for each of the children to feel safe and grow in themselves and the knowledge of how relationships and the world works. Sadly, for reasons not yet known, you have not had that type of relationship with your father. The bible teaches us that GOD loves us to the point of never, never, abandoning us â. . Though my father and mother foresake me, yet will the LORD receive me.â Psalm 27 - my favorite entitled TRUST IN GOD.
Yes, you can go off and live your life without GOD. No one will force you to chose HIM. And I doubt that satan will bother you either, because if you chose not to accept GOD, then satan is happy with that decision.
You asked another post, about hell, what is hell like. GOD has granted several saints the vision of the hell. For one or two, HE actual took them into hell. And HE gave the three chidlren of Fatima, Portugal the vision of hell during the time of the visitations by the Virgin Mary. All have reported the same scenario. Lake of fire with people âlooking like burning coalsâ rolling, floating and sinking in this lake of fire. The terrible smell of sulfur, and hideous creatures tormenting the people as well, these being the fallen angels who were given terrible forms after they fell. With the internet you can probably research some of the saints comments. Additionally, go to Luke Chapter 16 versus 19-31 wherein JESUS relays the story of the Rich Man and poor man named Lazarus. The Rich Man ends up in hell because he failed to provide for Lazarus, although he had all the means and capability to do so. Sinsâs of omission are as great as sins of commission. And in hell, the Rich Man looks up and seeâs Lazarus who has gone to âthe bosom of Abrahamâ - heaven is not yet open as JESUS has not died and risen, so Lazarus is in purgatory. And the Rich Man calls out to Abraham " Father Abraham, have pity on me. Send Lazarus to dip the tip of his finger in water to refresh my tongue, for I am tortured in these flames"'
It is a terrible place. And the Virgin Mary, during her visit to Fatima, Portugal announced that âsouls are falling into hell like snow flakes in a stormâ and She further declared that the single greatest sin that is putting so many souls into hell are sins of sexual impropriety
Laughing Crow, call on GOD. Ask HIM to help you understand HIM. Ask HIM to give you the grace to know HIM, love HIM and serve HIM.
Today, Sept 29th is the Feast Day of the Archangels Michael, Gabriel, and Raphael and I will begin a rosary novena asking them to intercede before GOD on your behalf requesting that GOD grants you the wisdom, knowledge and understanding to believe and be received into heaven through your new found faith.
For your part, you only have to ask and say yes to GOD.