I cannot see if you are a catholic or not by these words, or are you considering the Cathlic church?
Some questions if you are thinking of the church.
Do you know your Bible at all, or how much?
Do you know the places in the Bible that relate to the Mass?
You would have to be able to say “yes” to those questions to answer the next.
Can you honestly say that you have given your self to Jesus enough tolet go of your thoughts at mass?
Can you see Jesus in all of the Mass
I thank you, but I need to get a firm position of Roman Catholicism before I jet to Orthodoxy however doubtful I may be. I consider the Church’s teaching on leaving the Church. This would be schism if I went to Orthodoxy.
Have you joined the church yet to have these words take a place in your heart?
If I am not sure if the Catholic Church is wrong, then it would be a hurt to God. I do strive for God, but I think I need to be in the right faith. Of course, I still believe the Church to be true, in so far as it does not include the Papacy.
You will never know Jesus truely when you put thoughts in the way of the presence of Jesus in the Mass.
You HAVE to let go of negative thoughts if you want to be in a relationship with Jesus, this is the first point if wisdome in a relationship. Are you at the point where you know that you have a relationship with Jesus that is more important than any falibiity of the church.
But I want to believe the Papacy to be true, yet I know something cannot be true because I want it to be true. I love the Catholic Church, yet I cannot let my love get in the way of love of God right?
Gain that relationship with Jesus in such a way that when you go to mass from the time you enter the building your mind is on Jesus. Nothing else matters.
Then at EVERY word from the mouth of the priest/readers, listen to the place in the BIBLE put ALL your energy into doing that and the rest is up to you . When you receive Jesus at communion your heart and the spirit of God in you should leave you in tears.
When you have gained that place then you will yearn for more of Jesus. When you see the monstrance lifted, you (the spirit of God within you) will want to cry out “don’t put the monstrance away, just leave Jesus here a little longer”.
I would like to tell you of a time when I was so very very sick but I knew that I had to go to mass during the week. I hung over the rail could hardly move hung my head in pain but knew that i had to be there. It was hard to think o Jesus but in every word from the priest / reader I heard Him there. When it came to communion I got up went into the isle walked a few stepps with my head down, when all of a sudeen these words came through me. “This is the reason why I came”! I have never had that before but the spirit of God was in command not me. I can only say that God aloud that to happen. I must have let go of everything at that time.
Only Jesus.
No paple thought , no thought of being ill, no thought of others being there, Only Jesus.
Only Jesus.