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VanillaBean
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I have been struggling with an eating disorder since I was 11 years old…I am now 22. There have been times when I have recovered, but I always fall back. I began to have another relapse in December and lived with it, getting worse and worse, until about a month ago when I decided to try and get rid of it, for good. I am ready to move on with my life and stop this. I want to be healthy. I want to be FREE! I am seriously discerning a call to the religious life and I know I cannot enter until I am completely recovered from all of this. I really want to get better, I just don’t know if I can! I feel so weak…
I am taking anti-depressants and seeing a psychiatrist. I attend Mass (daily when possible) and recieve the sacraments regularly. For the first time, I have willingly told my friends and family what is going on so that I can have support and accountability (in the past I have always tried my best to hide it and lie to people because I was forced into medical care at my very lowest weight and I resented and hated them because I didn’t see that they loved me and were trying to help me). They are amazing and loving, and very helpful.
Please pray that I can finally beat this. Please pray that I can be healthy and learn to stop abusing myself physically and emotionally. I can resist the disordered thinking when I allow the Holy Spirit to assist me, but the addiction sometimes prevents that. Please pray that I can always be open to His help, even when a part of me wants to give up.
Thank you so much. Your dedication and faith inspire me.
I am taking anti-depressants and seeing a psychiatrist. I attend Mass (daily when possible) and recieve the sacraments regularly. For the first time, I have willingly told my friends and family what is going on so that I can have support and accountability (in the past I have always tried my best to hide it and lie to people because I was forced into medical care at my very lowest weight and I resented and hated them because I didn’t see that they loved me and were trying to help me). They are amazing and loving, and very helpful.
Please pray that I can finally beat this. Please pray that I can be healthy and learn to stop abusing myself physically and emotionally. I can resist the disordered thinking when I allow the Holy Spirit to assist me, but the addiction sometimes prevents that. Please pray that I can always be open to His help, even when a part of me wants to give up.
Thank you so much. Your dedication and faith inspire me.

