And God bless you for your faith and your search, even under those trying circumstances.
Wow --you surely got pasted. You’re my sister’s age and she never got that message either. . .we must have been lucky not only in our families but in our church location etc.
We were built to be capable of bearing children IF that was what God called us to do. Plenty of consecrated virgins who offered that to the Lord --I’d say in a sense that’s what you would up doing, so you aren’t ‘wrong’. Even though the reason (or a reason) you never married was that you were given wrong information, still, one teaching is certainly that we don’t live ‘unchastely’. . .and you’ve followed that teaching well.
If you haven’t checked out the Catechism of the Catholic Church (it’s online, one of the best sites is the Vatican one), it might be a good idea. Heck, even the old Baltimore Catechism doesn’t speak of women as inferior or men as ravening beasts (thank goodness). . .all that you got ‘extra’ was from some very, um, biased and ill-educated people. I don’t care HOW sincere they might have been, they were dead wrong and what they taught you was never official Catholic teaching.
You have many years left (I hope) on earth and I’m sure that your loving witness to God is what’s important, not your marital status. In fact, with no pesky husband, children or grandchildren in your life, you are able (as St. Paul said) to ‘concentrate on pleasing the Lord.’ So go for it! We’re all praying!