- Why did you leave the Mormon church? What are the major reasons?
- Why did you join the RCC? Were there elements of your Mormon background that made it a natural choice? Elements that made it harder?
thanks for sharing!
hi nebula, i have related my “story” before, but short version, I left as a teen, a lot didn’t make sense to me. there was no internet at the time so it was just me, and my own reasoning. i eventually became an atheist.
as an atheist i decided to experiment and see if i could figure out what faith was…also, i figured out that i had a lot of anger about god (false god, lower case ‘g’) and religion that i was caring around for a long time. so, i decided i wasn’t a very good atheist since i was angry at god. i didn’t know anything about christianity,
i had wandered around, studied yoga for a couple of years, thought about following that, but had no interest in anything having to do with “the divine”. attended the unitarian universalist church, found it to be a good social group, but it was at a time when i wanted nothing to do with religion.
so, fast forward, once i figure out i was angry at god i decided to learn what Christianity taught about God. I didn’t want some made up man-made thing like mormonism, so I went for the oldest form of Christianity I could find. I spent a year or so studying on my own, learning Catholic terms. I approached it like mormonism had never taught me anything, it was the only way that i could keep my disdain for religion out of what i was doing. this turned out to be the best approach, as the more i studied the more i realized that mormonism had redefined so many Christian terms. at that point, i studied very word, to learn the Catholic meaning, ie, if I read “God created the heavens and earth”. I looked up, God, created, heaven and earth, to learn what the Catholic church taught.
i reached a point where i understood the terms, but still did not have faith…a belief in god. i had been praying for a while before then, one prayer, that God would guide me to Him. so, i signed up for RCIA…it was then that God seemed to have put me on a fast track. All of the sudden all these things I struggled with, made sense. Faith, the largest mystery ever to me, suddenly materialized. Scriptures, that made no sense to me whatsoever, suddenly were very profound in their meaning. and on and on.
i had no intention of getting baptized when i started RCIA…as i went through the rites of acceptance and initiation, i spent time questioning myself…what am I doing? a lot of prayer, more study, reading scriptures, and i just knew it is what i was going to do.
i hit the same as you, a huge distrust of religious authority, to the point that I would not even talk to the priest after Mass. I avoided all eye contact with him and just wanted him to leave me alone. I have conversations with our deacon from RCIA, about religious authority…and he helped me understand the Catholic stance on this, recommended reading Kunz (who some people here will go nuts over as anti-pope or something). What I figured out is that there is a difference between authoritarian and authoritative. The Catholic church is not authoritarian, nothing is imposed on you, not ever. The Church proposes one message, that of Christ. You are free to accept or reject this message. It is the authoritative Church that Christ established, and as such, is entrusted with protecting the Truth of Christ’s message. Ensuring it does not become corrupt or fall into heresy. This authoritative aspect drew me more to the Truth of what the Catholic Church is.
The Catholic Church does not believe or teach that any one person converts you to the Truth. You don’t understand the message of Christ from feeling good about reading a book or happy emotional messages. No one is waiting for you to cry, as an indication that you “have the spirit”. No, it is the Holy Spirit that brings people to Christ. Catholics evangelize, not proselytize, and there will be no one RCIA who coerces you into anything. No one who will extract commitments out of you. They teach so that you understand the Doctrines and Christian history (as much history as can be covered in such a short time). They answer any question without diverting or changing the subject to get you away from hard subjects. They pray for you and with you. And sit back and watch the Holy Spirit guide you.
It is nothing like Mormonism.