I know it’s a psychiatric problem; but, there’s really no medication to control it. I dissociate during mass, especially during the consecration. I was part of a satanic ritual, well rituals, when I was little.For the longest time, my family thought I was possessed because I feared the Eucharist so much. It’s the imagery during the victimization that scares me and some of the triggers are the Eucharist, certain sounds,candles, and vessels that remind me of it. Every time I go to mass, I’m afraid to dissociate and create a scene because sometimes I don’t have flashbacks, and other times some are worse than others. The priest I tried talking to was from Nigeria, I don’t know if he misunderstood what I was trying to tell him and there was a language barrier, but I think he thought I didn’t want to go to mass at all. It’s kind of a difficult situation when you have DID and PTSD.