I at 10, I started looking around into magick, and two and a half years later descided to become mostly Wiccan. I just didn’t agree with most Christian teachings, and I could not pretend to be Christian and pretend to believe everything. I simply just couldn’t believe. I had to go with what felt right.
I’d be REALLY interested in what about “Christianity” you “just don’t believe in”…!
That list of items to talk about would be MOST enlightening.
The only problem I have with what Christianity says(besides beliefs that make Christians Christian) is that the emphasis on their way being the “one, true way”. I personally believe that this view is rather ignorant and that people need to do what they truly believe in, not what they are sometimes forced to think.
The issue of “FORCED INDOCTRINATION” is a VERY typical objection to those who “impose” that they think is Christian doctrine on those who are “imposed upon”.
The interesting bit is that it’s the PEOPLE who do the imposing, not the Church itself, which that “objection” describes.
When people, especially the young, confuse the messenger with the message, a great evil has been commited, not by the youth but by the messenger.
In other words, if you truly believe in your Church, then great!

But if you are one of those people who do not question anything and accept everything that you are told and have never felt close to God, then you are being forced to think things that you may not agree with somewhere down the line.
The Church always tells us to question the validity of anything and everything that is not a matter of dogmatic faith and morals.
If someone thinks that NO DOGMA is valid, simply because it IS a dogma, has a misunderstanding of what a dogma is,… and in particular why any particular dogma does in fact exist.
To see ANY “following of dogma” as “closed minded slavish imbecility” is not to understand that there are such things as dogma which we all follow, regardless of whether we recognize them AS dogmas or not.
In other words, man does not NOT do dogma, and to not have dogmas is to not be human.
Anyways, away from that. I think that the Wiccan deities and the Christion God are one and the same. I just preefer the way Wicca portrays these deities better, and since Wicca’s perspective has helped me come even closer to the Divine Being, I know I made the right descision.
The wiccan deities are “demons and angels”, though mostly demons.
I’ve moved from where you are to where I am, as an ex-wiccan-oid (celtic mostly), by way of realizing (finally) the silly “in-fighting” between the gods, which is a necessary quality of them, and a great “convincer” (to me) of the internal “energy wasting” (friction) which points AWAY from “the gods” being the REAL face of deity.
“The gods”, in their silliness, showed me the need for a thing to “unify” them,… which led me to the “great fuzzy deity” who smoothed all hard edges between then gods,… and that god, in it’s (it had no person per se) utter ineffectuality led me straight to the real God, as revealed in our history as God the Father, God the Son, and God the Holy Spirit.
I had a very difficult time with the “cultural clothing” of the church, such as it’s being “clothed” in the experience of the peoples of the middle east and environs, etc, but once God is seen as actually REAL, via actual experience in prayer, it is perfectly sensible that just as we receive knowledge via a “temporal language” (our language in the time we live) that we would receive God’s message through the “language” of the experience of a particular people used as “the conduit”, the example.
You will discover the frictions of the gods is unbearable as time goes by.
When you do, read the Catechism. In fact, read it now as a potentially GREAT source of the “aspects” of which your “gods” are based.
The gods are merely those aspects of the virtues and the sins as ennumerated in the catechism.
All gods can be found, for what they really are, in the Church, and in the documents of the Church,… the foremost and most concise being the
catechism.
Best to you on your path.
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