Are you saying those of us who are troubled by this subject are simply narcissistic egoists?
No. It isn’t the “being troubled by” that is the issue. We ought all to be troubled by it just as we all ought to be troubled by the existence of evil and death in the world. It is in the resolution of those with the existence of God that is the challenge. Being troubled by the hard passages is a species of being troubled by the existence of evil and death.
An easy answer is: A good God wouldn’t permit evil and death, therefore evil and death prove a good God does not exist.
It is the same argument with the hard passages. A good God would not command genocide therefore a good God does not exist.
Properly facing up to the existence of evil challenges our concept of God to the core of being. It becomes an existential question and not merely an academic one. I think that is why the passages are in Scripture to begin with. It is God saying: “Make complete sense of these.” We can’t on our own because our own lights do not properly apprehend God, so we are scandalized, just as we are scandalized by God calling Abraham to sacrifice his son, Isaac. Or Christ saying, “My flesh is real food and my blood real drink.” People are legitimately scandalized and will walk away because that can’t be so, or they find some explanation:
It is only a symbol, he didn’t mean it literally in order to reconcile the fact with what is tolerable to them and keep God under their control by their understanding. Same with these passages.
The conclusion isn’t that God orders genocide willy nilly but that God is not within our purview to scrutinize and explain in ways that we are comfortable with. He is not in that realm of beings.
We are meant to be discomforted
because we are not in control, neither of existence nor of morality.