This is a reasonable post. She was human but blessed in a particular way. Certainly a pondered post by yourself, it seems. I don’t think I have to try and debate this with you as you are seemingly on a journey of discovery. I like the part underlined particularly.
Been a while since I’ve visited this thread. Going back to it I would basically just say to get a solid, trusted translation for a Roman Catholic Bible. Begin with the footnotes and appendixes in there and build from that point. I can’t remember what we were saying now but either way don’t worry over loads of translations but just have one. Also, prayer is good when pondering over questions, and listen to priests in sermons.
Yes, okay, consolation is nice, and there is no reason why you can’t understand something in the long run, which is where reason comes in, but this is more about faith not feelings. We have to pray for grace (which can bring knowledge) which helps mystical knowledge (extra grace). Just keep going - keep asking questions, keep ‘wearing faith’ and ‘love’ as your armour wherever you are, keep praying and receive the Sacraments (I can’t remember if you are a Catholic, sorry?), but
wear love and pray, armour yourself in the love of Christ, and you’ll progress in understanding, no doubt. As St. Paul said at the end of the famous Corinthians Passage:
'In short, there are three that last: faith, hope and love; and the greatest of these is love."
God bless.

To add: great to hear you have a relationship with Mary, I don’t want to involve myself in that, because it is between you and your Holy Mother, so, put simply, Ave Maria!