Dear Ford,
Thank you for taking the time to read my posts, and comment on them so kindly.

I’m pretty sure my replies won’t make you overjoyed, but, all the same:
If you are searching for something to believe in, anything, then why did you choose your current belief system? I do not say this in ridicule or judgement, simply out of curiosity. If anything will do, why not Catholicism?
Oh no, I didn’t mean to imply that
anything would do. Just that something was better than nothing-- following some sort of teachings, doing practices that speaks to me, was better than my previous state of “well… there’re these fascinating teachings and perspectives that speak to me… but I don’t know if they’re right, maybe the author is just crazy…” That it was better to chose, to try to follow these practices (self-observation, meditation, transmutation… which I must admit, should attempt more often), rather than to sit around, just waverying if they were worthwhile or not. Surely a healthy dose of doubt once in a while does bring us closer to God than we were before, if we were to question… but my approach was much too much in the “indecision” area, that stoped me from going forward, and trying.
At least in recent incidents, where I’ve watched myself as I’m speaking, I’ve been able to be more kind, less resentful, since I believe those parts, are not whatever “I” really am.
In fact, I believe it is precisely what you’re looking for. You say that you cannot know the truth (or at least, that is heavily what you imply). But if God Himself has revealed the truth, I’m fairly (actually completely) sure we can take him at his word. After all, He’s the Almighty. Whatever he says is the truth, by the simple fact of his Omnipotence.
I don’t believe the Bible, or the Catholic Church, contain the fullness of Truth themselves. I don’t believe the Bible is entirely God’s word-- I believe there are Divine things within it, but that over time, men have corrupted and changed the texts (and the Church) for their own purposes, even perhaps accidentally-- not with God guiding their actions. So much dispute over the meaning of passages… so many denominations… translation upon translation, editor upon editor… So much of the world is corrupted, has for ages been corrupt, and I believe the Catholic Church has not been safe from that either. This is the view from where I stand, vastly different from yours, I know. Thank you for respecting it, and realizing that its in my hands.
I’m not looking for
something to believe in-- I’ve made a decision to give this a chance. Ideally, I’d want to be more open… my mind can believe what it wants, from the words of another or a thought in my head, but if I ever experience even a taste of Truth, those things, notions, images, will mean nothing.
“Jesus Christ is the Way, the Truth, and the Life.”
I have a question for you, honest, sincere: what does that phrase mean to you?
And I’m still learning how to love. Cause I certainly don’t do that very well, or very often!
Interestingly enough, this is similiar to Purgatory. You see, when we die, even if through God’s mercy we will enter Heaven, we still must be purified, for there can remain within us no sin. If there were sin, we could not be in God’s presence, since sin by definition separates us from God. Therefore, those parts of you that you are trying to “get rid of” so to speak, would be gone, and all that would remain is the image of God that you are an individual expression of.
Interesting point! I’ve never noticed the similarity before! Thank you! But, I certainly don’t want to wait around to start paying my debts, or change my behavior… even if “I” won’t ever be “good enough” by the time I die.

Only by God’s Grace would I be worthy of His precense, either way-- in your view, or mine.
Thank you again for your time and comments, concerns and care. And sharing that you were perhaps in a similar view some time ago.

I don’t plan on returning to Catholecism (even by the valiant efforts to convert me of a certain Seminarian), but, if God calls me there, He calls me there. Though, I feel He calls me here. I may be wrong, but, what else should I go by moreso than my heart and understanding, however limited?