sorry i don’t wasn’t planning on getting personal
but i was in the occult and now i’m trying to choose christ, i really am, but i can’t
what if in the end i’m unable to accept him
So glad you got out of there. Its quite hard. Most of the times its a point of no return.
What you should be experiencing right now is doubts, questions, confusiong, maybe sadness, and many more things. This is nothing more than satan attacking you, you finally get to know how it feels? Satan dragging you back to where you were.
You gotta fight now, because you have aweakened, you have left dark and come to the light, to the truth. You were strong enough to get out, you are strong enough to stay.
Ephesians 6, 10–18 KJV
10 Finally, my brethren, be strong in the Lord, and in the power of his might.
11 Put on the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil.
12 For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places.
13 Wherefore take unto you the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand.
14 Stand therefore, having your loins girt about with truth, and having on the breastplate of righteousness;
15 And your feet shod with the preparation of the gospel of peace;
16 Above all, taking the shield of faith, wherewith ye shall be able to quench all the fiery darts of the wicked.
17 And take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God:
18 Praying always with all prayer and supplication in the Spirit, and watching thereunto with all perseverance and supplication for all saints;
Accept God? How you are unable to accept God?
Your creator, who loves you infinitely to the point of giving his life for you. Why would you choose satan the father of lies, the father of pain and suffering over Jesus? Why would you choose hell over heaven?
What you should do: pray, if you do not know how here are the links: you can read, always good to memorize them though. Pray the rosary.
To Christ Crucified:
users.ipfw.edu/jehle/POESIA/ACRISTEN.HTM
Lords Prayer:
biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Matthew%206:9-13
For forgiveness:
biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Psalm+51&version=GNT
To Mary:
catholicity.com/prayer/prayers.html (all are mostly here)
How to pray the rosary:
ewtn.com/devotionals/prayers/rosary/how_to.htm
When attacked pray to saint micheal archangel, the commander od the heavenly army, it is in the link.
Read the bible. The word of God, there is no better thing to do, God talks to us throgh his word, you have no idea all that you can learn feom just one passage, try making some time to read it in your life.
Confess your sins, there is nothing more pleasent than to be in grace, clean pure. All your past erased, just like that, how good is God!
Attend mass daily, with obligation on sundays and other special celebrations, you would need a calendar.
Read about the saints, their lives, their devotion, their writings.
Always have in mind Satan will be attacking you like crazy right now, so be strong in the Lord, and tell Him that you want to leave that life behind and come to the truth, ask him to give you faith, a strong and deep faith.
