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vash88
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Hi everyone,
I feel like I make similar threads every six months or so (and I don’t want to bump old threads which is why I make new ones after a while… if that’s a problem, sorry. Let me know). I’ve reached out to a couple of you over PM about my situation. But the gist of it is that I’ve been struggling for a really long time with my own stubbornness and a couple of bad habits that are hard to break (Although, to those of you who have seen all my prayer requests, the fact that I have some bad habits MIGHT be news… I can’t remember if I specifically mentioned them before or if I always just talked about pride in general). Over the past year or so the prayer requests I’ve made here have been about softening my stubborn heart.
At this point, I’m finally starting to realize that I can’t break these habits on my own and I may need professional help. But I can’t help but worry about how I’d be perceived by the people around me (it’s a pretty close-knit community around here). I know I shouldn’t fret over my reputation, but I can’t seem to help it. Furthermore, I was in an in-patient “rehab-like” thing to deal with anger management issues when I was a kid. I was there for about a month, so I just remember what that process was like.
To some of you who have seen all my prayer requests, it may seem like I’m just making the same old request over and over, but I have gradually been getting better I feel. My battle has always been with pride to a certain extent, so even recognizing that I probably need professional help is a huge step for me. Now it’s just a matter of having the courage and determination (and every other necessary thing) to seek it out.
Thank you.
I feel like I make similar threads every six months or so (and I don’t want to bump old threads which is why I make new ones after a while… if that’s a problem, sorry. Let me know). I’ve reached out to a couple of you over PM about my situation. But the gist of it is that I’ve been struggling for a really long time with my own stubbornness and a couple of bad habits that are hard to break (Although, to those of you who have seen all my prayer requests, the fact that I have some bad habits MIGHT be news… I can’t remember if I specifically mentioned them before or if I always just talked about pride in general). Over the past year or so the prayer requests I’ve made here have been about softening my stubborn heart.
At this point, I’m finally starting to realize that I can’t break these habits on my own and I may need professional help. But I can’t help but worry about how I’d be perceived by the people around me (it’s a pretty close-knit community around here). I know I shouldn’t fret over my reputation, but I can’t seem to help it. Furthermore, I was in an in-patient “rehab-like” thing to deal with anger management issues when I was a kid. I was there for about a month, so I just remember what that process was like.
To some of you who have seen all my prayer requests, it may seem like I’m just making the same old request over and over, but I have gradually been getting better I feel. My battle has always been with pride to a certain extent, so even recognizing that I probably need professional help is a huge step for me. Now it’s just a matter of having the courage and determination (and every other necessary thing) to seek it out.
Thank you.
