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Nicod
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Hello brothers and sister in Christ, I’m going to be honest, because I don’t know who to tell this. I’m getting trough a difficult time in my life. I am 17 years old, I’m a baptised Catholic since childhood. I lived without God for the last 5 years.
Half year ago a miracle happened, I truly believed in Christ like never before and came trough a deep spiritual conversion. For a few months, I was practically an anti Catholic evangelical Protestant, but with time I could discover the beauty and fulness of the Catholic faith.
Since I came back to the church, I had many difficulties, not saying that I hadn’t many beautiful moments. I made few confessions, but the first ones weren’t really prepared. I thought to give up my faith, convert to Protestantism or even Judaism (not believing in the New Covenant). I have struggled with the sedevacantist position, but I’m recovering from it. I also start to see the links between the Old and New Covenant. I had some experience with New Age before that for a short while, which scares to this day, because of the spiritual dangers it could make. I often feel dryness and don’t trust or even doubt the love and mercy of our Lord. I think sometimes that there is no hope for me and many others. I often pray and try to make acts of contrition.
My mind is at this moment a constant theological battlefield. I always think of something to keep everything ‘integrated’. One bad thought and everything is ruined for a day. I’m constantly tired and often don’t fulfil my duties. It’s the worst in the morning, because I have the feeling that if I make a problem, I have an entire day to loose it. Because of that I’m not focused and worry my family.
I’m actually preparing for a general confession, but I don’t know how many mortal sins have I done, especially in my mind, because I used to have many, many very sinful, lustful and deadly thoughts. How am I supposed to tell all of them?
All I ask are prayers for me and my family members, because most of them don’t believe in the Gospel, especially my mother and sister, but in the end, God only knows what’s in their hearts. Looking for a brighter future.
Do you know any helpful Bible chapters or quotes, any books?
God bless you!
Half year ago a miracle happened, I truly believed in Christ like never before and came trough a deep spiritual conversion. For a few months, I was practically an anti Catholic evangelical Protestant, but with time I could discover the beauty and fulness of the Catholic faith.
Since I came back to the church, I had many difficulties, not saying that I hadn’t many beautiful moments. I made few confessions, but the first ones weren’t really prepared. I thought to give up my faith, convert to Protestantism or even Judaism (not believing in the New Covenant). I have struggled with the sedevacantist position, but I’m recovering from it. I also start to see the links between the Old and New Covenant. I had some experience with New Age before that for a short while, which scares to this day, because of the spiritual dangers it could make. I often feel dryness and don’t trust or even doubt the love and mercy of our Lord. I think sometimes that there is no hope for me and many others. I often pray and try to make acts of contrition.
My mind is at this moment a constant theological battlefield. I always think of something to keep everything ‘integrated’. One bad thought and everything is ruined for a day. I’m constantly tired and often don’t fulfil my duties. It’s the worst in the morning, because I have the feeling that if I make a problem, I have an entire day to loose it. Because of that I’m not focused and worry my family.
I’m actually preparing for a general confession, but I don’t know how many mortal sins have I done, especially in my mind, because I used to have many, many very sinful, lustful and deadly thoughts. How am I supposed to tell all of them?
All I ask are prayers for me and my family members, because most of them don’t believe in the Gospel, especially my mother and sister, but in the end, God only knows what’s in their hearts. Looking for a brighter future.
Do you know any helpful Bible chapters or quotes, any books?
God bless you!
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