Don’t hate on yourself like that. If you’re a hypocrite, I am too, especially when I fall short of God’s will for me daily, like when some colorful language came out of my mouth in rush hour traffic this morning. Not good, and yet I can come to an online forum and split hairs about how many angels can dance on the head of a pin. Are my priorities always in the right place?
Faith touches the deepest core of human existence. It is where the Spirit of God reveals himself to us on the deepest, most intimate levels. Of course its an emotional thing, and its clear that in the Catholic church, God has revealed himself to you and you have grown in your faith there.
I have mentioned before that despite some my disagreements with the Baptist tradition, sometimes I wonder why I shouldn’t go back to the faith that my parents taught me the Bible and the Gospel in, or the Assemblies of God church where I put my time and energy into so much for 10 years. I miss it sometimes. Why? because those places and times were places where I was touched by the Lord, the living God. For now, I have to open myself up to what he wants for me now, today.