After losing my faith and trust in God I’m scared. Scared to fully trust in him but scared to not trust in him at all. I guess I never fully trusted in the first place though. Is it ok to open my heart to God just a little bit? Otherwise I have absolutely nothing.
In order to know how much to trust, we first need to know why we need trust. Because trust is just another word…or is it?
How important is trust?
One example which is so obvious is the miraculous medal that Mary presented to Sr. Catherine Laboure, now a saint. She said to the sister that the greater the trust a person had in her, the greater the graces would be.
Jesus emphazied trust. To the centurion who asked that his son be cured, “be it done according to your faith.” Faith in this instance not only meant that the centurion had faith that Jesus had the power to cure his son, but it also meant that he would cure his son because he trusted Jesus’ word.
On another occasion, Jesus mentioned that he could not do many miracles in a certain town because of their lack of faith. (Faith in these instances does not mean faith in dogma or teaching.)
So now it seems that faith/trust is very important in our relationship with Jesus. Jesus himself values our trust in him and works in view of our trust in him.
It is also important to the practise of humility. Because if we only trust ourselves, then we don’t trust Jesus. This is one of the reasons people do not pray, because they see no need to trust Jesus. They think they can do everything quite nicely by themselves. But a humble man always goes to God before he undertakes any action because he knows that all good comes from God and not from himself. So when a person who does not trust Jesus does something, he will not bear fruit of himself because of his pride. God lifts up the humble.
And why shouldn’t we trust him? He loves us more than we love ourselves or even our own mother. He died a horrible death for us, gave us his all. Why would we not trust him?
He trusts us. He gives himself to us in the Eucharist, his very own body, soul, and divinity, to be one with us and in us. What greater love and union is their than this? What great trust he places in us.
After communion he stays with us in the divine presence in our soul thruout the day. He loves us that much not to want one moment to go by during the entire day where he is not with us…with the Father and the Holy Spirit. Why would we not trust him absolutely.
A fast way to learn trust…go to your blessed Mother.
May the Father, Son, and Holy Spirit, be in you, with you and beside you to guide and comfort you.
