I am truly seeking my whole life to be given to Him.
this means removing any and all barriers until, I can be made into nothing for His sake.
This does not mean to not grieve, because even Jesus wept over the death of Lazarus.
When I am able, through the power of the indwelling of the Holy Spirit, I pray and pray to be joined with Him at the cross, and may this pain bring us together closer, as well as being offered up in reparation for my sins and the sins of the whole world.