Hi NotWorthy, you are bringing back to memory my 29 yrs of my being a Catholic. I remember how I dreaded to go to confession because of the sins that I’ve committed. I felt dirty inside. Yes! after the priest told me what I must do for penance and then gave me his absolution, WOW, I felt so relieved, later Communion and real close to God. That lasted for maybe a day or two. until I began to sin again, and again, and again and again, while doing so, I felt dirty, then dirtier, dirtier, then it was time to go to that dreaded confession again. For 29 yrs. the same cycle prevailed. You see! My sinful nature had CONTROL and kept me sinning and going to confession over and over again. In summary, the only time I felt good, just as you say, after the priest gave me his absolution, then Communion THAT WAS BEFORE! What I didn’t know then, according the Bible Rev 3:10, was that Jesus was standing at the door knocking and knocking wanting to come in and take CONTROL of my life. When I opened that door and called Him in and had Him save me as Rom 10:13 states, Jesus (not physically but His Spirit) came in and now I feel the Joy of His presence ALL THE TIME. Jesus’ indwelt Spirit now keeps me from sinning. I’m a new creation as 2Cor 5:17 states, “he becomes a new person inside.” My new (Christ) nature did a 180 degree turn-around. What I once liked to do, I now hate to do as Eph 5:5 states, no more, dirty stories, foul talk, coarse jokes etc… In summary: You have much Joy after the priest gives you his absolution,(I once felt that way too) while I have the Joy of Christ ALWAYS 24–7–365. Until you get to where I am now, you’ll never be able to understand what I’m talking about. That’s why you can’t understand a saved person. While you are going through the various steps to get saved,** there’s a much easier way, do what the apostles taught the first century Christians to do**. It’s in the Bible. I wouldn’t think of lying to you, I can assure you it works, it did for me. ED O.