Hi Hokomai,
…I read this in a
talk by the Pope, so I thought I would pass it along: *
Seeing that many of His disciples were leaving, Jesus addressed the Apostles, saying: “Will you also go away?” (Jn 6:67). As in other cases, it is Peter who replied on behalf of the Twelve: “Lord, to whom shall we go? - and we too can reflect: to whom shall we go? - You have the words of eternal life and we have believed and know that You are the Holy One of God" (Jn 6:68-69).
On this passage we have a beautiful commentary of St. Augustine, who says in one of his homilies on John 6:
“Do you see how Peter, by the grace of God, by the inspiration of the Holy Spirit, has understood? Why did he understand? Because he believed. You have the words of eternal life. You give us eternal life by offering your risen body and your blood, your very self. And we have believed and understood.
"He does not say we have understood and then we believed, but we believed and then we understood. We have believed in order to be able to understand;
if, in fact, we wanted to understand before believing, we would not be able either to understand or to believe*. What have we believed and what have we understood? That You are the Christ, the Son of God, that is, that You are that very eternal life, and that You give in Your flesh and blood only that which You are”
Why would we have to believe before we can understand? I would propose that it is because we cannot understand without the grace of God helping us in our understanding. The fishermen were humble men, unlike the kings or the leaders of the Temple. They looked at what was happening, and they didn’t understand, but they *knew *Christ, they trusted Him and believed in Him, and so, *through the grace of God, *understanding was given to them.
So I speculate that you and others like you want to understand on your own, but you are unable to understand on your own because you are merely human–this understanding is beyond our capabilities as humans. We can only understand with God’s help, and so we must take that leap of faith so that we can receive His help.