Holly,
I too experience depression, mine is clinical. God be praised I’ve got meds that help me be functional all the time and on a scale of 0 (total yuk) to 10 (absolute bliss) I’m around a 7 on average but I have stretches of days at a time now and then when it dips below that, usually to 4 or 5. This past year the meds I had quit working as before and it took about six months to find the right combination to get back to what is my normal above. So I truly empathize with your struggle.
I had never seen this prayer below before someone else in this thread offered it, but I will echo it for your sake.
Prayer against Depression - by Saint Ignatius of Loyola
O Christ Jesus,
when all is darkness
and we feel our weakness and helplessness,
give us the sense of Your presence,
Your love, and Your strength.
Help us to have perfect trust
in Your protecting love
and strengthening power,
so that nothing may frighten or worry us,
for, living close to You,
we shall see Your hand,
Your purpose, Your will through all things. (Especially grant this for our sister in Christ, Holly, through Christ our Lord. Amen.)
Also I ask the intercessions of Mary, Mother of our Lord and our Mother, Mother Theresa and all the angels and saints to pray for Holly too in concert with the prayer of Ignatius of Loyola, please for the greater glory of our Lord and the health, peace, and salvation of our sister in Christ, Holly. Amen.