You have collided with two truths that were bound to come up sooner or later: She is not perfect, and neither are you. You havenāt ābecomeā a jealous person. You are a person who has finally run into the situation that provoked you into the jealousy of which you were always capable.
OK, so now when you say, āLord Jesus Christ, Son of God, have mercy on me, a sinnerā it is a bit less parrot talk than it used to be. This is the typical way that holiness goes.
If God were to disclose who He is, who we are, and who everyone else is, the full truth about everything that God reserves to Himself, we could not stand it. That is a mercy. Still, it is necessary that we gradually be purged of our love affair with unreality. We have to come to know the whole truth and yet allow ourselves and everyone around us to receive the infinite mercy and infinite love of the Infinite God.
Every time it happens, you feel as if you are at Square One. You are in good hands, no matter what āsquareā you are on. Hang in there!
Nada te turbe,
nada te espante,
todo se pasa,
Dios no se muda;
la paciencia
todo lo alcanza;
quien a Dios tiene
nada le falta:
SĆ³lo Dios basta.
Eleva tu pensamiento,
al cielo sube,
por nada te acongojes,
nada te turbe.
A Jesucristo sigue
con pecho grande,
y, venga lo que venga,
nada te espante.
ĀæVes la gloria del mundo?
Es gloria vana;
nada tiene de estable,
todo se pasa.
Aspira a lo celeste,
que siempre dura;
fiel y rico en promesas,
Dios no se muda.
Ćmala cual merece
bondad inmensa;
pero no hay amor fino
sin la paciencia.
Confianza y fe viva
mantenga el alma,
que quien cree y espera
todo lo alcanza.
Del infierno acosado
aunque se viere,
burlarĆ” sus furores
quien a Dios tiene.
VĆ©nganle desamparos,
cruces, desgracias;
siendo Dios tu tesoro
nada te falta.
Id, pues, bienes del mundo;
id dichas vanas;
aunque todo lo pierda,
sĆ³lo Dios basta.
