I feel like I may commit suicide

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hi, please try not to think of suicide, it will not help in the long run. you are a precious child of god and don’t let any situation convince you otherwise. you are not responsible for the sins of others and they will be held accountable for the the evil things they have done. the world is a cruel place which is just testimony that we don’t belong here. as for finding work, i know how you feel. as a person with a disability, i’m constantly getting told that i’m a burden and that basically i shouldn’t exist. i do go to university and tried to apply for work through the co-op program but no one ever thinks i can do anything. the disability just becomes a solid rock wall that they can’t or perhaps don’t want to get past. it makes me worry about mmy future because i don’t really know what will happen to me once im done school but i know with god’s help there will be a way. please dont’ despair and i will be praying for you. aso, as others have suggested, perhaps there is someone at church you can talk to?
 
Praying always works. You must put your trust in God. God will provide. Do not doubt it. 🙂

Pray the Rosary. Experience the love of Our Lady. I’ll be praying for you.

God bless you. :blessyou:
 
bigbangtheory72 said:
Guys, I didn’t know where else to turn. I usually use this website solely as a viewer but I have so much turmoil that I decided to create an account. I’m a college student and I’m broke. Yeah, I know that many college students are broke but my family lives under the poverty line. I have been looking for a job ALL Summer but I couldn’t find a job because when managers would find out that I was a college student, they would tell me that they’re looking for someone who would work at their establishment for at least a year. Even McDonald’s said that they weren’t hiring (because the high school kids took the jobs). Every single day I applied for a job and I must have sent hundreds of copies of my resume out. I would’ve been fine with not getting a job had my mother, who is pure evil, not stolen my money that I had saved. Now I have no way of getting back to college, I can’t get new clothes (I have one pair of jeans), and I can’t afford my textbooks. On top of that, I was sexually abused and my ex-boyfriend sent me an email that was just awful (it was so awful that my cousin was thinking of calling the cops). I am so tired of praying. God wasn’t there to stop what happened to me and I feel so unclean. I am starting to become full of hate. I hate my mother for everything that she’s done to me in my life (she basically almost killed me when I was a child because of the abuse). I hate my family for always telling me to forgive her because she’s my mother and it’s okay that she abused me, stole my identity, and my money. I hate my family for being anti-Catholic. They’re all Protestant and they say anti-Catholic things when they know that Catholicism is my religion. I used to pray so much but this morning, I realized that praying just doesn’t work. I didn’t have so much hate until me today when my sadness became anger. It’s only so much that a teenager can take. I have no one. I have nothing.
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Please get help with your suicidal ideation. Call 1-800-SUICIDE, or call 911 if you feel like you might kill yourself now. Also, I advise you to call your local police regarding the various crimes committed against you and please get professional help for your suicidal ideation.
 
bigbangtheory72 said:
Thank you 🙂 I will try to stay strong. It’s just so hard. It’s like I keep praying and I still feel like a failure.
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I had a wise priest tell me one time as I was in that situation where Prayer no longer seemed to work… It is when Your prayers seem effortless and when you feel that God is not listening it is then he is closest to you. Your prayers are not working maybe b/c it is time you rely on others prayers to get you through something difficult. It may be a lesson from Our Greatest teacher which is Christ the Lord for you to let go and let God. I pray you get through this and rembember… Christ will lead you through anything if you let him! God Bless!!!
 
No! No! No! I have been in your shoes before. YOU WILL FEEL BETTER. Check yourself into the nearest hospital or call 911 if you are not able to do that.DO IT RIGHT NOW! You will be in my thoughts and in my prayers.
 
Prayer ALWAYS works. It may not be the answer you wanted, but it works.
See, you came here, at the end of your rope and now you have an army storming the castle for you.🙂
Please go to the counseling office or clinic of your college and tell them what’s going on. Most colleges have free counseling for students in crisis (like you). They will hook you up with social services - clothes, food, a safe place to sleep and someone to talk to. Really. And there’s a financial aid officer on campus who will get you tuition $$$ too. I PROMISE!

btw, my mom was a real piece of work too. It took me a looooong time to ignore the message "she’s your mom, forgive her.’ She might be your mom, but you DONT have to ‘love’ her. You DO have to respect her (but you can do that from a distance - living your own life). Keep your eyes focused on the goal, and KEEP MOVING FORWARD. Don’t look back! You’ll turn into a pillar of salt!😃

Go now!!! Go talk to someone… RIGHT NOW.

love & prayers, dear!:gopray2:
 
Bigbangtheory:

Please call for help–it is NOT a sign of weakness! We were built to need each other and right now, you need a live person to talk with. Everyone on the forum is here for you but eyeball-to-eyeball conversation with an understanding soul is what you need (priest, counselor, heck even someone at the ER can connect you with someone). I know God has something wonderful in store for you in the future. Miracles still happen!

I’m praying for you too <3
 
Hi. I’m praying for you. Suicide is a permanent answer to a temporary problem. God is calling you to something great, with that amount of suffering. Please offer your suffering united with His, through Mary, and tell Him that is your prayer. It works. If you want offer it to the souls in purgatory through Mary and ask them to pray for you. That works too. you have too much to offer Him He clearly is making a special place in heaven for you if u unite to his suffering And don’t die before he calls you. That can’t happen.*

I was beaten to the point of death by mom too and both parents did sexual abuse spiritual abuse mental physical. My dad ruined mu credit and stole money *i cant even get a credit card (have yoi tried this btw? Cc is possibe w decent credit go to a bank and ask ) was homeless twice. *last year I was homeless, broke, had to stay at the home of my ex who I had a bad relationship with while I was also in love w someone who lived there. Panic attacks all year bc the law wasnt getting my little brother put of that evil house *he is ok now nI finally got a nanny job. Now I know how scary being poor as a young girl w trauma can be. Prayer and fasting (not always by choice) gave me strength. I was blessed to be in love at the time bc it made me care less, but also more hurt as it was doomed. Im at peace with him now

Ask God every day to take you to your destiny, offer the suffering for holy souls, go to mass, rosary. If you haven’t already. It works. I spent more time doing this than looking for work and it was the right thing to do.*

Three saints who saved me, for desperate causes:
St. Philomena (she is why I a alive right now. Feast day this Sunday)
St. Jude
St. Rita

Padre Pio too and St. Joseph and St. Cajetan is the patron of jobless homeless

Please MSG if you need any questions or want to talk. You will survive and God has something for you. Remember suicide is against His law but your suffering with Him makes you close to Him. This life is temporary but eternity is forever. *Just today even as I am in a lot of suffering still even though my situation is slightly more stable than it was, still I said thank you Jesus for all my suffering bc what if I died and had never suffered so I had never turned to Him and then wasn’t pure enough for heaven? Now you are blessed to get a chance to turn to Him more than ever

God bless you he will and does provide he always does. Please feel free to PM me if you want as I’ve had similar experiences so maybe can help in a unique way

PUSH pray until something happens. ESP for rosary and to St, Mike. You need spiritual protection as I’m sure the evil one does not want you getting closer to Christ. But Christ wants you united to Him now.
 
bigbangtheory72 said:
Guys, I didn’t know where else to turn. I usually use this website solely as a viewer but I have so much turmoil that I decided to create an account. I’m a college student and I’m broke. Yeah, I know that many college students are broke but my family lives under the poverty line. I have been looking for a job ALL Summer but I couldn’t find a job because when managers would find out that I was a college student, they would tell me that they’re looking for someone who would work at their establishment for at least a year. Even McDonald’s said that they weren’t hiring (because the high school kids took the jobs). Every single day I applied for a job and I must have sent hundreds of copies of my resume out. I would’ve been fine with not getting a job had my mother, who is pure evil, not stolen my money that I had saved. Now I have no way of getting back to college, I can’t get new clothes (I have one pair of jeans), and I can’t afford my textbooks. On top of that, I was sexually abused and my ex-boyfriend sent me an email that was just awful (it was so awful that my cousin was thinking of calling the cops). I am so tired of praying. God wasn’t there to stop what happened to me and I feel so unclean. I am starting to become full of hate. I hate my mother for everything that she’s done to me in my life (she basically almost killed me when I was a child because of the abuse). I hate my family for always telling me to forgive her because she’s my mother and it’s okay that she abused me, stole my identity, and my money. I hate my family for being anti-Catholic. They’re all Protestant and they say anti-Catholic things when they know that Catholicism is my religion. I used to pray so much but this morning, I realized that praying just doesn’t work. I didn’t have so much hate until me today when my sadness became anger. It’s only so much that a teenager can take. I have no one. I have nothing.
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Hi I am so sorry for all that has happened to you and all the worry and distress you have and continue to suffer. I send you love (((hugs))) long with prayers. The abuse you have been through is very painful and will take time and support to heal from.Counselling would truly help. I wonder if catholic charities are near to you to help you out financially and with counselling.
I live in the UK and things are a little different to the US.Please know many people care but most of all God cares about you and He loves you unconditionally.

When terrible things happened to me in my life I felt as you do now. I felt God was not there for me and allowed me to suffer. As my relationship grew with Our Lord through prayer, I began to see things from a different perspective. I can honestly look back now and see how things were being put in place to bring about changes in my life.

I shall pray for you and in the meantime please get help.Talk to a crisis line or your priest.
The Samaritans samaritansnyc.org/calling-the-hotline/
Samaritans Crisis Response Hotline

When You Need Someone to Talk To
(212) 673-3000

Free, immediately accessible 24-hour emotional support
24 hours a day, 7 days a week. Anonymous. Confidential.

and Lifeline are good places to get help and support. suicidepreventionlifeline.org/

God bless you my friend…much love to you too!
 
Dear Lord please help our friend.Please bring help and guide our friend to where that help can be found.Lord please comfort our friend in every way that they may feel Your love Amen

Eternal God , in whom mercy is endless,
and the treasury of compassion inexhastible ,
look kindly upon us and increase Your mercy in us ,
that in difficult moments we might not despair
nor become despondent , but with great confidence ,
submit ourselves to Your Holy Will ,
which is love and mercy itself . Amen

Memorare (Prayer to Our Lady)
Remember, O most gracious Virgin Mary, that never was it known that anyone who fled to your protection, implored your help, or sought your intercession, was left unaided.
Inspired by this confidence, I fly unto you, O Virgin of virgins, my Mother. To you do I come, before you I stand, sinful and sorrowful. O Mother of the Word Incarnate, despise not my petitions, but in your mercy, hear and answer me.Amen
 
Hey sister:)

Im also glad you are sharing! There are people who care so much here. They are gifted with words and support. But also, its only a forum. You need to seek help.

Remember that when you have nothing, you have nothing to lose. You are free to trust God for everything. You are not relying on clothes, like the world…you are not fed well, like the world…you are not treated special, like the world treats fools.

Go to Mass, maybe even some different parishes, and dont worry about what to pray about. The Lord of hearts knows yours. He is emptying your life of things and people so He can fill you with Himself. Do not consider your trials horrible, but as a way to glorify Jesus, who had nothing good in this world either! Open your heart and tell Him you dont really want to kill yourself. That you want to trust Him. And BELIEVE that He is going to!

My poor friend in Christ, if you knew how much He is waiting for you to let Him love you, you would thank Him for all your trials. You would light up the whole room when your family and ex-jerk hear Jesus coming out of your lips. Testifying how you were almost ready to give up, that they all pushed you down and He picked you up.

I am praying for you immediately after this post. That you will be ministered to in your heart, and lifted up. Thanks again for posting here. Friend me, i would be honored! You will be ok. What an honest message you have shared! It was good to see after debating doctrine for awhile. That gets old:p You are the real deal. Thanks, God bless you truly. I am confident you will be encouraged by Him. Our Lord Jesus is great. Amen

Yours
Michael
 
I prayed for you at mass tonight. Please try to stay strong, you are in my thoughts.
 
Scoobyshme said:
A young man was assigned as an apprentice to an old goldsmith. He watched, as the old man took the gold ore and heated it up to melt the gold out. Then, he put the gold into a crucible and turned the heat up as high as it would go! The gold melted, and the impurities in the gold began to float to the surface. The old man skimmed off the impurities, and kept heating the gold. More impurities came to the surface, and these, too, were skimmed off. Eventually, the gold was purified, and he poured it into a mold to cool off. The young man, after observing all of this, asked the goldsmith, “Sir, how do you know when the purification process is complete?” The old goldsmith looked at the young man and said, “When I can look at the molten gold, and clearly see my own face in it, it’s done.”

God does the same thing to us. He throws us into the crucible of life, allowing us to go through hardships, etc., in order to purify us and make us ready for heaven. Whenever we are given a Cross by Our Lord, we should thank Him. We were not made for this life, but for the next…when HE says it is time. We are not God, and have no right to say when our time here on earth is done.

You and I, in the end, will be in heaven or hell. Period. Our choices in this life matter.

God is a merciful God. Go to sacramental Confession and cleanse your soul of any sin. Offer yourself to Him. Everything you have, everything you are, everything you do. Your entire will, offer to Him, to do with as He pleases. Then, you will know peace. The happiest people on earth (I think in Central or South America, last statistics I saw) are materially poor by our standards. But they have spiritual wishes we Americans could only dream of.
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Thank you for this. I feel a lot better because of all of the support that I’ve received on here and I feel like God is with me now.I’ll do what you said.
 
Dorothy said:
Please remember that you exist because the Lord loves you infinitely!

I believe it can help if you made an appointment with a priest and had a good chat with him.
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Oh yeah:newidea: I exist because God loves me. I never thought about it like that before 🙂

And yeah, I’m going to make an appointment with my priest.
 
Southern said:
I had a wise priest tell me one time as I was in that situation where Prayer no longer seemed to work… It is when Your prayers seem effortless and when you feel that God is not listening it is then he is closest to you. Your prayers are not working maybe b/c it is time you rely on others prayers to get you through something difficult. It may be a lesson from Our Greatest teacher which is Christ the Lord for you to let go and let God. I pray you get through this and rembember… Christ will lead you through anything if you let him! God Bless!!!
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Thank you! That is wonderful advice. Thanks for praying for me 🙂
 
rcwitness said:
Hey sister:)

Im also glad you are sharing! There are people who care so much here. They are gifted with words and support. But also, its only a forum. You need to seek help.

Remember that when you have nothing, you have nothing to lose. You are free to trust God for everything. You are not relying on clothes, like the world…you are not fed well, like the world…you are not treated special, like the world treats fools.

Go to Mass, maybe even some different parishes, and dont worry about what to pray about. The Lord of hearts knows yours. He is emptying your life of things and people so He can fill you with Himself. Do not consider your trials horrible, but as a way to glorify Jesus, who had nothing good in this world either! Open your heart and tell Him you dont really want to kill yourself. That you want to trust Him. And BELIEVE that He is going to!

My poor friend in Christ, if you knew how much He is waiting for you to let Him love you, you would thank Him for all your trials. You would light up the whole room when your family and ex-jerk hear Jesus coming out of your lips. Testifying how you were almost ready to give up, that they all pushed you down and He picked you up.

I am praying for you immediately after this post. That you will be ministered to in your heart, and lifted up. Thanks again for posting here. Friend me, i would be honored! You will be ok. What an honest message you have shared! It was good to see after debating doctrine for awhile. That gets old:p You are the real deal. Thanks, God bless you truly. I am confident you will be encouraged by Him. Our Lord Jesus is great. Amen

Yours
Michael
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This actually made me cry. Tears of happiness of course. Thank you
 
I feel much better now. Although I don’t know any of you, you all made me feel so loved. I’m so glad that I chose to convert to Catholicism because I have all of you as my spiritual brothers and sisters:)

You truly have no idea how much this support meant to me. Please continue to pray for me.
 
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