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John_of_Woking
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Ana you saidNo, it is not easy. But I have suffered and am willing to suffer more, IF I know that it is what God is calling me to do. It would be easy and a “safe” decision to write off pot as sinful, attribute all the blessings and graces I have received because of it to the devil and his wiles, and even if I am wrong, can count on God to keep in mind my good intentions and hold me accountable only for what I “know” (or think I know) about His Will for me. I want to make this clear. I am WILLING to not use marijuana if it is sinful ( I am not convinced at this point, but am willing to be)
But because so many people, namely my husband and especially my young children are DIRECTLY AFFECTED by my mental state, I need to really think and pray this through. The consequences either way have the potential to be SEVERE! My children have suffered tremendously in the past by me, as a result of my sufferings.
I cringe to think of the chaos and drama they had to endure, with a mother who is mentally unstable, explosive and unpredictable. I am supposed to trust God to bring my children’s souls safely through the shark infested waters of potential abuse, a suicidal mother who can at times not even leave the house. And my husband through the inner torment of wondering while he is at work if things are okay at home, if his children are safe, and if today will be the day, that he might come home to a dead wife. The heartache of loving someone so much who is unable (though wants to) express love. The fear that he and the children may be left alone, because I had to be “put away” for a while.
Can I trust God to bring my family through this sort of trial? YES! YES! YES! I can and He has!! We have been graced beyond measure as a family, and have overcome much. Our love for eachother is immeasurable and my husband and I have a beautiful marriage that has been cemented and made stronger through our trials.
We are to accept humbly what God has for us and if that means His sufferings, does that not also mean His blessings?
Yes, this life change has been brought through my use of marijuana.
When I stop smoking (for a long duration) the horror returns. No I do not spend my day stoned. When I smoke, it makes me feel normal. When I don’t smoke … it is a nightmare. It is the differance between being able to walk and being in a wheelchair.
For the love of God, would I WILLINGLY imprison myself back in my wheelchair, after having this last year of freedom? Only for Him, who gave His only Son for me.
His Church is my Herald of Truth. Not peoples interpretations of Church teaching. Please show me where the Church says MARIJUANA is sinful? I read the post above which pointed out the differances of soft drugs. But again what is the definition of drug? Caffeine is a mind altering substance. Ask anyone who needs that cup of coffee in the morning. But no one is arguing the morality of caffeine. Why? And yes, it is addictive. As a teen I knew quite a few kids addicted to No Doze. Ever hear of a caffeine headache?
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I am WILLING to not use marijuana if it is sinful ( I am not convinced at this point, but am willing to be).
Surely you should trust Holy Mother Church on this