I have always believed in God and our Lord Jesus Christ. Since Tuesday I’ve been extremely upset and sad, I’ve been crying I am so upset. I was on the internet and some athiests were acting as usual in their arrogant way preaching evolution. I always have believed in creation and I feel thiestic evolution in contradictory to the Bible. Everytime the athiests have said this stuff, I’ve just brushed it off and forgot about it, but on Tuesday i just got the strangest feeling, and I’m feeling as though I am losing my faith. I’ve talked to several priests and both believe in thiestic evolution.
Wednesday night I prayed to God and I think I recieved a message. I was looking around on TV and I stopped on a Christian network, and the man on there talking, Andrew Wommack, was talking about exactly what was happening to me. So that night I went to bed and I started believing again, but this morning I started douting.
I was crying all this morning and was praying. I do believe in God, but, I feel like something is trying to prevent me from believing.
Please I don’t know what to do, I really need some prayers. I really need some help.
Thank you.
First and foremost, may the Lord grant you peace and calm you.
There are some things on earth here that have just enough leeway that people go round and round over them like cat’s and dogs. Can you, in your wildest imaginings believe that your Father in Heaven wishes us to be so torn up inside over these types of matters? Your heavenly Father loves you, and wishes you peace. He requires only that you love him, and your neighbor, and he dwells within you. No fear.
My biggest advice is to move away from this issue for a while, and focus on a different area of theology and scripture. Ask Our Lady to help you through this, and don’t be hesitant to pray the rosary.
Speak to your parish Priest regarding your doubts and fears. Usually just a change of focus will help immensely when you are in intellectual or theological peril. Favorite Psalms, or scripture passages. Intercessory prayers to some helpfull Saints.
God loves you and will not leave you hanging because you have been bombarded with all sorts of conflicting information about some issue or other. Maybe this is all His way of saying you shouldn’t focus so much of your spirit on one matter. Maybe you need a more macro approach to your theology. Accept the overall plan, rather than the historical details.
There are many folks, much smarter than I who have reconciled science and the bible for themselves with all sorts of marvelous theories, some of which are quite soothing. It’s possible that all are correct.
To my thinking it doesn’t matter all that much. I watch the melding of science and God occur with a kind of fascinated, yet slightly detached attitude. I know full well what God is, and what He has done in my life. I know what He did for my wife, and so many others in my life. Whatever sorts of interesting arguments folks have with each other about this theory or that passage doesn’t effect the working of God in our lives one iota. He is there. He knocks. Open the door, and he comes in and dwells with you, and you with Him. And that…you can count on! No matter the whims of the argumentative community.
Yours in Christ,
Steven