I know I’m not cursed it’s just my life sucks right now.
I’m sorry to hear you feel your life sucks right now. If it’s any consolation, I’ll offer you from my experience that just as bad experiences seem to ‘cluster’ all at once, good experiences tend to, too (so you can look forward to those in future, even if it seems hard to see right now!)
I’ll add that apparently there’s even a psychological phenomenon behind the clustering: apparently whatever ‘mood’ we’re in at a given moment, we’re more able to remember times in the past when we felt the same way, and less able to remember times in the past when we felt differently. So when we’re sad, we remember all the sad times – and feel even sadder, as if our lives have been nothing but sadness, because that’s all we can remember. But the encouraging thing is, when we feel happy, we remember happier times more easily – and that reinforces our happiness too.
One thing that helped me during a rough patch was writing down one ‘good thing’ to remember from every day (or from every week, if every day seems rough to you) and put them in a jar. (Or my grandma wrote hers in a notebook; we decided to do this for a year and then share our favourite memories.) Some weeks, the only good thing I’d notice and write down would be: “A bird sang really beautifully in the street,” or “A person smiled at me in the store and that was nice.” But the more I looked out for good things to notice, the more I automatically noticed good things, and the more I was able to write down. And then I could look into the jar when I needed to remember good things.
Just a thought. I’m sorry to hear you’re going through a rough patch, and I hope things start looking brighter soon!
