I'm so emotionally worn out

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I’m worn out. I’ve been praying for healing of a chronic condition for two years and my lack of energy is due to resisting God’s will, and I can’t do it anymore. It’s taken all my strength. Please pray that if I am not to be healed, that I accept and trust God’s will and His love, and that I trust Him to help me live with this. I know this is the right thing to do. I know it’s what I must do. I fear that maybe I don’t have the strength to do it.

And please pray that he doesn’t forseake or punish me for being beligerent and untrusting. I was very angry tonight, and had a meltdown in which I doubted Him and his love. You see, I equate not being healed with God not loving me. But I am ready to change, and to surrender this problem completely to Him. My heart wants to let it go and give it to Him. I have to, but I need an increase in courage and faith.

Thank you for your prayers. I’m sorry if this is rambling, but I’m just so tired.
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I offer my daily mass, and rosary for your intentions.
 
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The roof was showing signs of age. It’s time for a new one.
I called a contractor who has good reviews and some affiliation with one of the local Catholic churches.
I usually don’t get multiple estimates (though I don’t tell the contractor that) because so many of them are unreliable. When I find one who is reliable and communicative, I’m more interested in that than I am running around trying to save a few hundred dollars.
 
PrAYING FOR you too. As a wise nun once said to me, "Tell God how you feel. Yell at Him.
He can take it!’
 
I pray for you with double empathy!
I also pray to God to heal your condition and eliminate whatever it is caused by.
🙏🙏🙏🙏
 
IMO first work on your faith and acceptance of his will, that will lead you to a place of inner peace. What you mention about getting angry, etc. is not a good sign. Second try praying for the intercession of a saint. God’s way are mysterious more often than not you can get healing through intercession. That is my experience anyway.
 
Not rambling at all. FWIW, I’m in a similar boat myself and know your struggle all too well. Try this (and I said a few of my own for you). 🙏

O most holy apostle, Saint Jude, faithful servant and friend of Jesus,
the Church honoureth and invoketh thee universally, as the patron of hopeless cases,
and of things almost despaired of.

Pray for me, who am so miserable. Make use, I implore thee, of that particular
privilege accorded to thee, to bring visible and speedy help where help was almost
despaired of.

Come to mine assistance in this great need, that I may receive
the consolation and succor of Heaven in all my necessities, tribulations,
and sufferings, particularly Denise and that I may praise
God with thee and all the elect throughout eternity.

I promise thee, O blessed Jude, to be ever mindful of this great favour,
to always honour thee as my special and powerful patron, and to gratefully
encourage devotion to thee.

Amen.
 
Thank you all so very much for your responses. I have read each and every one, and I greatly appreciate them.

I’m feeling somewhat better. I think I still have a ways to go on this journey, but I hope these are my first steps in the right direction.

God bless all of you!
 
Oh, I completely understand this. I, too, have had my entire adulthood full of chronic illness, and the last three years completely disabled. It is tough. Some days I feel like God is close, and others, I feel like He can’t possibly love me to allow this amount of suffering. I don’t know the answer, just wanted you to know you are not alone in feeling like this. I’ll pray for you
 
Let me go evermore from this place
To my ever-evening embrace
For the day is now in tatters
Filled with all ruined matters
As even the birds fly away
Having observed this death of day
Testament to the emptiness and pain
That lingers deep within the heart and brain
Like a deep darkness rising over the land
Looming like a storm guided by unseen hand
Full of fits of grief and turmoil the living have always known
Struggles which find their birth in a fear of being alone
Which drives our aimless wandering through this vacant night
Which drives our vain endeavors which always end in plight
So let me go forth from this place to some place of peace
To a silent land where turmoil will ever cease
Let there be end of my worries, let them flee like a dove
Let there be freedom from all burden of illusion of love
In that place where even golden bands turn to rust
In that place where my life-tired heart may finally turn to dust
 
it’s admirable that you endeavor to keep trusting the Lord amidst illness, suffering and doubt. May the Lord have extra mercy on you!
 
Our Father, Who art in heaven
Hallowed be Thy Name;
Thy kingdom come,
Thy will be done,
on earth as it is in heaven.
Give us this day our daily bread,
and forgive us our trespasses,
as we forgive those who trespass against us;
and lead us not into temptation,
but deliver us from evil.
Amen.

Hail Mary, full of grace.
The Lord is with thee.
Blessed art thou amongst women,
and blessed is the fruit of thy womb, Jesus.
Holy Mary, Mother of God,
pray for us sinners,
now and at the hour of our death.
Amen.

Glory be to the Father,
and to the Son,
and to the Holy Spirit:
As it was in the beginning,
is now,
and ever shall be,
world without end.
Amen.
 
I am praying for your intentions, but also for you.

Remember, God will never give you a cross that you can not handle without his love.

Many great Saints have grown angry with God due to the weight of their cross. You are not alone. Everyone has moments or periods of weakness. We are humans, and your feelings last night were very human.

God loves you so deeply that he made the effort to personally create you and share your entire life with you. He will carry you when you do not have the strength to carry yourself.

Keep the faith! In God’s eyes, you are the most special person in history. We all are.
 
Thank you all so very much for your continued prayers. It means a great deal to me. I have been feeling better emotionally and spiritually. I’m tyring to focus on being thankful when I have a good day and not worry. It’s hard for me, but I’m trying.
 
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