God be with you Denise.
Peace and warm regards.
I can relate; but I certainly do not know how you feel.
And while you know, Christ Jesus, suffers all unearned suffering with you;
sometimes things reach a pinnacle of anguish; that is is difficult to let that
consolation help strengthen you.
Yes, I have been there from time to time. I have found it easier to bear;
through concentrating that all unearned suffer; literally is His. And it is a gift;
that He shares it with us. Of course, this does not mean stoicism, n’est pas?
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I never want to go back; taking forever to fall asleep in anguish;
rocking myself to sleep; asking over and over, Jesus help me.
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So I’ve learned more and more to be proactive in relying on His Strength;
to live up to His Word; cooperating with His Grace. My thoughts rarely
drift into uncharitable thoughts at all, toward myself or anyone.
Presumptive thoughts have all but burned away (although, when I realize;
at a later time I fell short; I rely on Reconciliation, such a wonderful gift of His Mercy.
And I concentrate; on how my thoughts, prayers, words, and actions can be used to help others; asking Him for guidance. And yes, I do have a long way to go;
especially, though with charitable intent, when sharing ideas I get impetuous
loosing prudence to a degree. This is usually because of the current climate
in the world; how deadly solemn it is; and leaning too much on my strength
to get an idea across — that the listener is not ready or receptive to hear.
But I am learning to do what I can, in thought, prayer, word, and deed,
and let go and let God.
have a wonderful evening.