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Paris_Blues
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I’m trying to stay really calm about this…
Saturday afternoon I went to Confession, was absolved, etc. then stayed for Saturday night Mass.
However, when Communion time came around, everything was going all right until I recieved our Lord. When I bit down, He was tough! Hurt my teeth and I felt so weary because I was thinking, now what did I do?
I remember a long time ago reading a short description about a Eucharistic miracle book and it described what the book mentioned how the Eucharist turned to flesh and blood, and turned hard when recieved by a person in mortal sin…and I immediately felt so weary and even clueless that I didn’t feel like chewing. I just got out of Confession and didn’t remember commiting ANY sins!
Or perhaps the Host got “overbaked” and got tough, who knows.
But that didn’t stop me from becoming weary. I almost forgot where I sat when walking back to my pew and when I got back to it, I was still weary that I was staring straight ahead and the people who were walking by probably thought I was taking it for granted because I was not praying but all I could do was pray, “Lord, what did I do?” and TRIED to trust Him that everything was okay but I still couldn’t help it.
I went home almost in tears and thought my faith completely vanished.
What’s going on here? I DON’T mean to be or sound scrupoulous or sensitive but still, this doesn’t make sense.
Or was it because I didn’t visit our Lord in the Eucharistic Adoration? I highly doubt that but a lot of “whys” are going through my head, trying to figure out what. Was I not sorry in Confession even though I wanted to be? Was it because I just smiled at the dude sitting next to me who was married? WHAT WHAT WHAT!!!
Maybe I should go join the Buddhist church, eh?
What’s going on here? I know I’m probably making a big deal about this but still, I can’t help it.
Saturday afternoon I went to Confession, was absolved, etc. then stayed for Saturday night Mass.
However, when Communion time came around, everything was going all right until I recieved our Lord. When I bit down, He was tough! Hurt my teeth and I felt so weary because I was thinking, now what did I do?
I remember a long time ago reading a short description about a Eucharistic miracle book and it described what the book mentioned how the Eucharist turned to flesh and blood, and turned hard when recieved by a person in mortal sin…and I immediately felt so weary and even clueless that I didn’t feel like chewing. I just got out of Confession and didn’t remember commiting ANY sins!
Or perhaps the Host got “overbaked” and got tough, who knows.
But that didn’t stop me from becoming weary. I almost forgot where I sat when walking back to my pew and when I got back to it, I was still weary that I was staring straight ahead and the people who were walking by probably thought I was taking it for granted because I was not praying but all I could do was pray, “Lord, what did I do?” and TRIED to trust Him that everything was okay but I still couldn’t help it.
I went home almost in tears and thought my faith completely vanished.
What’s going on here? I DON’T mean to be or sound scrupoulous or sensitive but still, this doesn’t make sense.
Or was it because I didn’t visit our Lord in the Eucharistic Adoration? I highly doubt that but a lot of “whys” are going through my head, trying to figure out what. Was I not sorry in Confession even though I wanted to be? Was it because I just smiled at the dude sitting next to me who was married? WHAT WHAT WHAT!!!
Maybe I should go join the Buddhist church, eh?
What’s going on here? I know I’m probably making a big deal about this but still, I can’t help it.