I have trouble coming to grips with what God wants of us. I have been Catholic all my life. But I feel that no matter what good I do, nothing good happens to me. I know we are to live for the eternal reward, but that doesn’t mean earthly life has to suck does it?
Hi there S.S.
I can honestly say that I identify with you.
Thank you for posting this, It helps to verbalise and to get feedback from others.
Let me share my thoughts on this subject. Stay with me, I have a tendency to go off in the deep end. These thoughts stem from my life experience on the subject.
I have been thinking that God is not as involved with us as everyone thinks that He is.
I believe that He is good, that he sent His Son down, and whatever the Bible says, happened…HOWEVER, I have come to think that He doesn’t involve Himself with us on an individual level.
It feels like Christianity is a one-sided relationship. To me, God is definitely a big-picture-person, if you know what I mean. God’s side of the relationship was done way back, with Israel in the O.T. and then with Jesus in the N.T. When Jesus ascended, the Holy spirit came down on the 12. That’s where God’s side ended. He left it there, and left it up to us to reciprocate.
If I look at the lives of non-Christians vs. Christians, it is apparent that we are all in the same boat. There are no favouritism here on this earth. One would think that if we are pious and followed God in His commands that it would go well with the individual, and they would prosper, and individual prayer requests would be answered, individually, and unequivocally, but even in Biblical times, only the select few had this kind of interaction. David, Abraham, Moses…the rest of them were just there, just people, following teachings.
It’s the same now…no matter what you do, and how hard you pray, we are no better off here than the guy who does not believe in God. The evidence is right there.
And, if you look at Jesus’ last words in the Bible, I can’t see how that is true today…not even the most pious, holy people within the Church, even inside the convents, not even of them are Jesus’ last words evident. It shows me that those last words were mostly given to the 12.
Sure, even the disciples didn’t have a lot of faith, Jesus spoke to them about that, and Peter sunk when he walked on the water, but the Holy Spirit changed that. They were given power from on High on Pentecost.
However, only them. The deeds that Jesus speak of in Mark 16, the only people who was ever able to do that, was the 12. As with the select few O.T. prophets.
Let’s look:
Mark 16
15 He said to them, "Go into the whole world and proclaim the gospel to every creature.
16 Whoever believes and is baptized will be saved; whoever does not believe will be condemned.
17 These signs will accompany those who believe: in my name they will drive out demons, they will speak new languages.
18 They will pick up serpents (with their hands), and if they drink any deadly thing, it will not harm them.
Luke 24
49 And (behold) I am sending the promise of my Father upon you; but stay in the city until you are clothed with power from on high."
Acts 1
8 But you will receive power when the holy Spirit comes upon you, and you will be my witnesses in Jerusalem, throughout Judea and Samaria, and to the ends of the earth."
9 When he had said this, as they were looking on, he was lifted up, and a cloud took him from their sight.
I have come to believe this:
To be saved and be in Paradise with Jesus, we are to be baptised and believe in Him. This will save us. As per Mark 16:16. That is the crux of the Gospel. And to believe in Him means living a live pleasing to Him, following His teachings.
But, while we are on earth, we can’t expect any special treatment from God, not personally. Praying is not going to change His mind. His will is firm and set. The only thing that praying does is change us. Through prayer we conform our will to God’s will.
Jesus’ prayer in the garden is an example. Not my will but Your will be done.
The only effective prayers that I can see are:
- “Jesus, have mercy on me, a sinner. Please forgive my transgressions against you, I am heartily sorry and I will endeavour not to do it again, and love you more.”
- “Your will be done, not mine”
But other than that, we are on our own. We are subject to His will for us and for Earth. We will be treated the same as any other person here and now. We have trials, and we have hardships and we are to go through them alone, but we are to go through them in a manner that will please God. Because, that is following His teachings and showing God we love him.
The only thing that sets us apart from them is when Jesus comes again for Judgement, we will be raised up due to our belief and baptism. They will not, due to their unbelief.
It really feels one sided…and, like I said in the beginning, in a way it is. God’s side was done waaay back and now it’s our turn.
I guess what I’m saying is that you are right, in a way.Life sucks, and it will and there is no alleviation for Christians, like we sometimes are taught. That is a hard thing to come to terms to…He will not help us in our everyday struggles and trials by direct intervention.
BUT we must live our lives pleasing to Him to be saved.
I hope I made sense, I’m also still a bit bitter about this realisation and trying to come to terms with it.
AC.