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JDaniel
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A little background: I have been through the stages. As a kid, I was expected to attend Mass with my family. Through grade school and high school, I had no deep thoughts about the possibility of beyond life. In college - a Catholic college, at that - I began to doubt life after death and the existence of God.
So, in my freshman year, I decided that I was an agnostic. I believed that there were no valid reasons to support an affirmation of God. By my junior year, I had become a full-fledged atheist. My atheism carried on out into the world of life, work, marriage, kids, etc.
When I graduated college, I was a Philosophy major and a Chemistry minor.
Then, I had a personal revelation that I could not (and still cannot) describe as anything less than that I was given a glimpse into the supernatural. I took up Aquinas again, and began re-reading him. The logic of the “5 ways” convinced me that I had been wrong. Not only was there God, but also, there had to be God.
During my lifetime, I have been a millionaire, a father to three wonderful children, all of whom I love dearly, a relatively devoted husband
, a business owner, the owner of fast, expensive cars, possessing the capability of going anywhere at any time, and, generally, became that person that has so much that he’s impossible to buy a gift for. For all of this, there persisted a hole right in the middle of me. All of this stuff didn’t amount to a gnat, as I mentioned in another thread. It left me unquenched. It left me with nothing that I could reasonably define as “hope”.
As time went along, I was slowly becoming a lazy Catholic. I did not press my kids to go to Church, I did not press that my wife convert from Lutheranism, I skipped Mass due to work and time constraints - I became the epitome of a pseudo-religious materialist. However, the certainty that Aquinas’ proofs gave to me never left me.
When I came out of my atheism stage, the idea of Hope made perfect sense. What we call the higher (or, theological) form of hope had secure grounding in the inescapable truths from Aquinas" proofs. God existed, for me, so it was easy to position him as the object of good that I hoped to achieve by the end of my life. That idea gave me comfort, faith and a continuously growing hope.
It was not until I became aware, through my joining CAF, that there was a world of people out there who, at most, vehemently hated God (the “idea” of God), therefore he doesn’t exist, or, at the least, disbelieve that the god was the Catholic God. In reading the posts of these people, there did not appear to be any sense of “longing”, or missing something. Maybe a little hostility, but, I explained that away by thinking that they must have come from another forum where anger was a persistent mantra.
I have a question that requires seriousness and absolute honesty. It is not directed at those members who are “churched”, but, rather it is aimed at the agnostics, atheists and non-theists. Here it is:
If the “good” that is God is not the object of hope for you, what is?
Life itself is not doing it for me. The universe does not do it for me. The grand pursuit of pleasure does not do it for me. There are others, none of which do it for me. I believe that any honest agnostic, atheist, or non-theist would have to agree, if these questions were asked silently, in themselves, and answered with sublime honest-ness.
I need your help. You are, obviously, persevering. What causes you to persevere? What keeps you from giving it up to the sea, as the three football players just did? Or, what would cause you to give up on striving?
jd
So, in my freshman year, I decided that I was an agnostic. I believed that there were no valid reasons to support an affirmation of God. By my junior year, I had become a full-fledged atheist. My atheism carried on out into the world of life, work, marriage, kids, etc.
When I graduated college, I was a Philosophy major and a Chemistry minor.
Then, I had a personal revelation that I could not (and still cannot) describe as anything less than that I was given a glimpse into the supernatural. I took up Aquinas again, and began re-reading him. The logic of the “5 ways” convinced me that I had been wrong. Not only was there God, but also, there had to be God.
During my lifetime, I have been a millionaire, a father to three wonderful children, all of whom I love dearly, a relatively devoted husband
As time went along, I was slowly becoming a lazy Catholic. I did not press my kids to go to Church, I did not press that my wife convert from Lutheranism, I skipped Mass due to work and time constraints - I became the epitome of a pseudo-religious materialist. However, the certainty that Aquinas’ proofs gave to me never left me.
When I came out of my atheism stage, the idea of Hope made perfect sense. What we call the higher (or, theological) form of hope had secure grounding in the inescapable truths from Aquinas" proofs. God existed, for me, so it was easy to position him as the object of good that I hoped to achieve by the end of my life. That idea gave me comfort, faith and a continuously growing hope.
It was not until I became aware, through my joining CAF, that there was a world of people out there who, at most, vehemently hated God (the “idea” of God), therefore he doesn’t exist, or, at the least, disbelieve that the god was the Catholic God. In reading the posts of these people, there did not appear to be any sense of “longing”, or missing something. Maybe a little hostility, but, I explained that away by thinking that they must have come from another forum where anger was a persistent mantra.
I have a question that requires seriousness and absolute honesty. It is not directed at those members who are “churched”, but, rather it is aimed at the agnostics, atheists and non-theists. Here it is:
If the “good” that is God is not the object of hope for you, what is?
Life itself is not doing it for me. The universe does not do it for me. The grand pursuit of pleasure does not do it for me. There are others, none of which do it for me. I believe that any honest agnostic, atheist, or non-theist would have to agree, if these questions were asked silently, in themselves, and answered with sublime honest-ness.
I need your help. You are, obviously, persevering. What causes you to persevere? What keeps you from giving it up to the sea, as the three football players just did? Or, what would cause you to give up on striving?
jd