My friend, this is very dangerous advice you’re offering here. It may very well be that you had a genuine mystical experience- the knowing you describe may be contemplation, I don’t really know. But don’t think that a spiritual director wouldn’t know. The reason we say these things is because it’s the collective wisdom of the Saints for millenia- do you really want to ignore their advice?
You’re right- God takes care of us, and many ways he does that is to provide proper guidance in the Church and in spiritual life. Don’t think that you don’t need the guidance. Pray and ask God and seek earnestly (even the lay orders) you’ll find guidance. All the Saints tell us never to lean on our own understanding or to trust ourselves- You may be totally convinced of something that’s not true- so seek guidance.
Peace!
Yes, you are right, seek guidance, but remember, some of these experiences are not to tell you to do something in a particular way, some of these, like the one I went through, are simply to change your life, give you faith, and help you hang in there.
ps. I don’t think I explained really well what happened… basically I had come back from a crisis of faith… I had failed Jesus and had become a Muslim for 10 months of my life, I was misled… after I came back I confessed, felt forgiven, and felt happy to be a Catholic again… however, my life took a downturn and I was having a harsh experience… I don’t want to go into details because it hurts to think of it, but I was alone, and was thinking that maybe I should just end it, maybe I should just end my life, stop causing trouble, stop hurting those I love, etc… I was on my knees alone in my home, my parents were out, I had no one to turn to but Christ, and I would beg for an answer, but it wouldn’t come… if you’ve ever seen Bruce Almighty, I had reached a crisis much like Bruce did where I still believed in God, I just didn’t know if He loved me… I was wrong to doubt, I know, but I was feeling so hopeless and had broken down to a horrible extent that I was crawling on my knees and just wanted to die… but then I felt something, a presence, not in the room, inside me, and yet at the same time around me, everywhere… I don’t know if that makes sense… The room felt brighter, and I felt a wave of pacifism, I don’t know, it was soothing, like I was suddenly happy, happier than I’ve ever been in my life, and I felt like a little kid… and He was there… I don’t know how to explain it, He wasn’t physically there, but at the same time He was there in a different way… He was in me, and around me, yet I could not hear an audible voice, or see His light, not with my eyes… but inside, and outside… in my soul (I guess that’s what it was) I felt Him calling to me, telling me to not cry and to have faith, to have faith and be strong, because it all happens for a reason… because He was with me and my hard experiences were for a reason! Yet I could not hear that, I felt that… it was not physical… ugh, I can’t explain it!!! it’s frustrating!!!

but it was so amazing! And He told me not to fear, and I knew it was Jesus, He let me know, yet I did not see Him, and He delivered signs through me, through passages in the Bible which I had never even seen before… through movies on television… through His voice inside/outside/wherever it was which I felt with me, and I felt relieved… Suddenly He had my tears of depression and wanting to end my life go away… and then after a while, I realised how much He loves me, and how He really did want me to be strong and how He has a path for me and that it was all happening for a reason, and I felt guilt for having been angry at Him, and I could feel Him there, already forgiving me, but I just couldn’t help it, I cried even more, but it was a combination of tears of shame and tears of joy, joy that He was here, in my room!!! with me, after I felt so unimportant, here was Jesus caring for me! after I got angry at Him and said He had abandoned me and was about to commit the horrible sin of suicide, and He saved me! And after that I did not doubt Christ any more… after that I vowed not to leave Christianity again, not to stop being a Catholic. After that, I’ve learned to become a better Christian, I’ve gotten closer to Him, and He’s inspired a lot of good in my life… Maybe you will understand my story now, maybe, maybe you’ll see I’m no trying to mislead others, I’m just trying to stress how amazing Christ is! How incredible He is in the way He works! And how even when you have lost hope in Him, He hasn’t on you, and He is still willing to save you!