Fr. Benedict Groeschel † is praying for you! He described himself as a “hopeful pessimist.”
I guess that I am positive by nature, but the world takes its toll at times. I know that through the envy of the devil, death entered the world. And, that envy is made manifest in all sorts of ways. As we see with Job, the devil demands testing and God allows it. The devil is certain that we will weaken - which is good! Because when we are weakest, God is shown to be the strongest.
I do not know the precise reason for my medical history, but I have my suspicions. It all arrived as I was, via the Holy Spirit, exponentially increasing my love and devotion. I was hit with an aggressive, “incurable” non-Hodgkin’s Lymphoma. Stage IV with too many tumors for the pathologist to count. Dr. threw everything at it that he could. Here at CAF, there were pages and pages, thread after thread of prayers - 7,000 minimum.
Even though the cancer went into apparent remission, I was hit with an immediate relapse, which was almost certain to end in death. Nope! God had a better idea. I was hit with yet another relapse. But this time, two additional systemic cancers arrived. Stage IV the second time, with two dozen tumors, cancer in my spleen and small intestine, and 26% of my marrow was cancerous. Could three cancers at once be defeated?
If this was demonic, he threw everything he had at me, yet God prevailed. I went through a lot more and have a lot more to go through, but still have my sense of humor (Mods, please take note!!!) and if I ever doubted God’s mercy, I no longer do.
All it took was weakness and I have that in abundance.