I would say that in God’s original plan for his creation (GOPC), having a certain % of his creatures go through (part of/most of) life wishing they hadn’t been born or wishing they were dead certainly wasn’t part of it. People with certain temperaments, skill sets are better suited for this life, for others life is more like something unpleasant, a struggle, an ordeal, a chore. I think a death wish is not wrong in itself, God never blamed the prophet Jeremiah for wishing his mom’s womb had been his coffin. But even though something is not a sin or morally wrong, it is still not ideal. And it can’t be conducive to good things, either. When I was a teen and even later in my 20’s thinking I had potentially another 60-65 years of living to go through was too much to bear, I couldn’t do it without getting severely depressed/hopeless. Now having possibly half and maybe more of my life behind me is a pleasant thought (and being older, I see a good number of people not much older than me pass away, so life doesn’t seem like this endless drudgery anymore). To me, suicide is something that’s always in the back of my mind, like a secret weapon that I’d hate to use but knowing it’s there secures and comforts me, more like a defense mechanism (e.i. if things revert to how bad they used to me, I know I’ll be able to escape). Spend your energy/attention/focus on bettering your life inasmuch as it can be (suicide sucks ang God will call you back when he wills it, so might as well make the most of the life you’ve got). Water a plant that has potential for growth, wanting to die has none of that.
