I don’t know if it is wrong to want to die … but I do understand wanting to die … I have been ill for 25 years and there have been times that I have wanted to die. In coming home to my faith in Christ and our wonderful Catholic Church, I have started to pray the following prayer …
O most merciful Jesus, Grant me Your Grace,
That it may remain with me always
And persevere with me to the end.
Grant me always to will and desire
What is most pleasing and acceptable to You.
Let Your will be mine, and let my will
Always follow Yours in perfect conformity with it.
Let my will and desires always be one with Yours;
And let me be unable to will or not to will
Except as You will or do not will.
Grant that I may die to all worldly things,
And that I may be despised and unknown for love of You.
Grant, above all things to be desired,
That I may find rest in You,
and in Your heart alone may be my peace.
You, O Lord, give true peace to the heart
And perfect rest to the body and soul.
Apart from You, all is difficult and never still.
In that peace, In You Who are the one,
Supreme and Eternal God,
I will sleep and take my rest.
Amen.
God bless you and keep you in the palm of His hands.