Hi Lypher, no forgiveness needed.
It depends on which saint or Pope from which era of changing Church history you want to believe.
St. Augustine accepted the concept of “delayed ensoulment”. He wrote that
a human soul cannot live in an unformed body. Thus, early in pregnancy, an abortion is not murder because no human soul is destroyed.
Pope Innocent III (1161-1216) determined that
a monk who had arranged for his lover to have an abortion was not guilty of murder if the fetus was not “animated” at the time.
Early in the 13th century, he stated that the soul enters the body of the fetus at the time of “quickening” - when the woman first feels movement of the fetus. Before that time, abortion was a less serious sin, because it terminated only potential human person, not an actual human person.
While Pope Sixtus V (1588) issued a Papal bull threatening those who carried out abortions at any stage of gestation with excommunication and the death penalty, Pope Gregory XIV (1591)
revoked the bull of Sixtus and reinstated the “quickening” test, which he determined happened 16½ weeks or at about 4 mos into a pregnancy.
And then I think still today (but it too could have changed) the Church has a rather complex exception process allowing procedures which abort the fetus to save the life of the mother. However they call it indirect abortion or a double effect. And like to think they don’t know by performing such a procedure that the fetus will likely die. I applaud this as an act of mercy and deserving compassion toward the life of the mother. However I don’t think they should pretend they don’t know that such an act is in all likelihood going to kill the fetus and then be so judging in other circumstances.
Biblically you’re missing Ex 21: 22-24 which clearly suggests the death of a fetus is not quite as serious as if an actual person already born is killed. Some might even Biblically argue body + breath = the soul or human person as found in Genesis 2:7.
And no a lot of Catholics are Catholic according to Church teaching. Maybe they haven’t covered that yet with you in your RCIA classes. About how Baptism according to the rites of the CC makes one a member of the Body of Christ, which is the Church and imprints a permanent bond onto the soul in which no act can cause one to lose membership. A lot of Catholics dissent, this is true. But have not become Lutheran or members of another Protestant church. And thus remain Catholic in the eyes of the Church. But don’t worry a lot of Catholics on CAF don’t seem to know the teaching either. Or else they too dissent and won’t admit it.
Truly God bless you in your journey into the Catholic faith. And as we walk united in Him, let us always remain humble remembering it is He Whom is greater than any differences we might have. God bless you and peace be with you always.
Your still Catholic brother in Christ,
CMatt25
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vatican.va/roman_curia/pontifical_councils/intrptxt/documents/rc_pc_intrptxt_doc_20060313_actus-formalis_en.html