Hi Maryam. I’m a first time poster. I didn’t plan to register until I saw your letter. I just had to write to you. I hear so much pain from your letter.
I hear you when you say…
"This post is about my not having gotten support in my faith, not being helped when seeking to become Confirmed and realizing I don’t have any faith in Christ. If you want to make into “oh, well she has depression so she is making every problem bigger” thread… then please take it elsewhere."
I hope you won’t think I haven’t been listening (or rather, understanding) what you said above, but I’m going to say something which in case you feel that I am, yet again, adding pain to your suffering, please forgive me in advance.
I am going to recommend a site that might help you. And although I haven’t really gone through it too thorougly, I’ve gained some comfort from reading from this site. You see, I have a bother who is also suffering. Believe me when I say that people who cares for you, suffer
with you. So, I am coming from that angle… I know we don’t know each other but … as a human being to another human being (in pain)…
The site is
dbsa.invisionzone.com. I am hoping this will help you. I’m not sure if I’m going against rules for posting the site here. It’s just a discussion board where you can vent or if you even want, ask for advise (from Family & Friends section). It’s a support group in other words. (For depression and those with bipolar disease).
So I hope I didn’t offend you nor break any rules… and I hope the site will help you.
I’m also hoping that by giving you this site, I don’t do you more harm than good. Please, let me know **if **you ever get to visit the site, whether it helped you. I feel a lot of trepidation about recommending the site to you. But it really did help me. I’m hoping it will do the same to you.
PS. I admire you for sticking so long with our faith despite what you have been feeling (dryness). Someone here said, the will to pray (or in your case, staying catholic) is as much prayer as the prayer itself… or something to that effect.
PS…I’ve hated reading long posts, yet look at what I did!! First time to post anywhere too!!
Take good care of yourself…
For others out there…Hi!!