Thank you! I just needed to know what other people thought of my situation. When I first posted it, I was in deep spiritual turmoil. I just talked it over with my SD, our talk went along the lines of what you said about the Saints, basically, he talked about the little martyrdoms in life.
Please pray for me. Last week I have discerned that the seminary I entered was not for me. I still feel the call to the Presbyterate. I am now in a position to choose the Diocesan, Jesuits, or Society of Saint Paul. My congregation’s charism is just too radical for me.
To everybody reading this…
Pray for my vocation that I may be in the right life
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When I first posted it, I was in deep spiritual turmoil.
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I am not so old that I do not remember, with much affect, what it is to know this ordeal of turmoil when one is as young as you. Be assured, I know this spiritual turmoil is very deeply felt. In the moment that it is lived, it can seem so overwhelming. It is only with the passage of years that one can put it into its proper perspective and see that it is the loving hand of God that is writing an important page in the story of one’s life. Be at peace.
I would like you to know, my son, I pray for you with a very glad heart. I am glad I met you here in this forum. If indeed the Lord is calling you to priesthood and/or to consecrated life, I pray that you so cooperate with His grace and so correspond with His voice that you will find yourself precisely there to where He has called you and in none other place. And if it is to another vocation He calls you, I pray He so shows you that there only may you find yourself.
There is no shame in trying one’s vocation in an institute that requires tremendous sacrifice and discerning that you are, in fact, called to another place. You will always have the consolation of knowing that you perceived a call, you answered the call, and that you and the officials of the Church discerned that yours is simply a different path. It is better to find out now in happiness than later in sorrow. Please know that and be assured of that. You can look back knowing that you were faithful to what you perceived as God’s will.
What is sad is when someone forces their own will upon a situation rather than openly discerning the Holy Will of God.
May the Lord bless and guide those who will oversee your formation and the discernment of your vocation. May the Spirit of Wisdom alone guide and direct them.
*Originally Posted by Confiteor Deo
I would rather be dismissed from the seminary than be forced to receive Our Lord in an irreverent manner. I wouldn’t want to undergo my formation in a seminary that would mandate such a thing anyway.
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You will forgive me but I cannot leave this matter unanswered. As a lay person, you have every right to receive Holy Communion in the posture of your choice, according to what the Church allows.
I gladly say that there are institutes of consecrated life – and other places – where those of a certain disposition may live out their spirituality, whatever form it takes as long as it is approved by the Church. God be praised.
You do not, however, have the right to say that those who choose from what has been ascribed as a legitimate option a choice you would not is thereby acting irreverently. Then you are accusing the Church of irreverence to her Lord. I take great exception to that. Also because I have known many of great holiness who have chosen to conform themselves to an accepted practice or even a form of the liturgy, in spite of their own personal preference, precisely because it was a moment of self-sacrifice and self-renunciation.
You may find this distasteful. That is your prerogative. When I was looking at issues of formation, where a young man may be sent far from his family for years on end, far from his native land, asked to give up his own language and his own culture in order to embrace a mission that he would never choose – all the while doing so with the real prospect that this was going to be his life for possibly the remainder of his years on earth or certainly the vast bulk of them. That he may die on foreign mission and be buried in his adopted land. And he was called to embrace that not reluctantly but with the willingness that it was as if God Himself had asked it, through the voice his superior, and that he was honored to accept all of this as a divine gift – if that was the value and the heroicity of obedience that this form of vowed life demanded and yet he was not able to even choose a method of receiving Communion that was perfectly and legitimately acceptable but not according to his personally preference…well, yes, I am sorry but that was something which I looked at with a very severe eye because it told me something very important that I needed to know. Let us be perfectly clear. Receiving Communion standing and in the hand is not a matter of doing something wrong or irreverent. I have very sadly seen irreverence in both modes of receiving. And if you either do not or cannot understand that, then I really can’t say more.