I have a lot of problems with my feet and ankles, and have had two surgeries in the last two years. My knees are also very bad.
This weekend, I tripped and fell flat. Not at church, but at another place where I didn’t see in advance a tripping hazard. I’m not very agile and often, I’ve had near misses when something unexpected happens, or when someone cuts in front of me or stops suddenly. This was the first time I’ve actually fallen when this happened.
It was terrifying for me and for my poor husband, who was next to me. I was so afraid that I had broken both of my kneecaps or my wrists. My husband was afraid that I had broken teeth or jaw.
I was trying not to cry, but for the rest of the evening, I had to keep taking those big gulping breaths that people do to keep from crying. It’s been two days now, and I still have tears near the surface. I should probably just have a big, gasping, sobbing cry and get it out of my system.
I still hurt, too. The fall was a big setback for me. I’ve been trying to exercise and keep my ankles, feet, and knees flexible and strong, but now it hurts to move. I just sit. And I’m using my crutch again.
So that means I’ll probably gain even more weight.
Folks, in the past, I have supported the idea of people kneeling for communion in a regular OF Mass without a rail if they feel convicted to do so.
I no longer feel that way after this weekend.
As far as I’m concerned, anyone who would deliberately place others like myself, who are very unstable on my feet, at risk for tripping and falling is not showing Christian charity and probably shouldn’t be receiving Communion at all.
I was so upset and scared and in pain and devastated. BTW, I’m only 52 years old, so I don’t look like the typical feeble old lady. You wouldn’t know to look at someone if they have some sort of balance problem that makes tripping a real risk.
Also, in case you’re wondering, I receive Holy Communion on the tongue now, not out of any special conviction that it’s the proper way to receive, but because I’m afraid I’ll lose my balance if I receive on the hand.
I think that the reasons the Bishops give for not encouraging people to kneel in a regular OF communion line, mainly because of the danger of creating a tripping hazard, are good and logical and we should follow them out of love and respect for those who are weaker.
If people insist on kneeling anyway out of deep spiritual conviction, then why can’t parishes establish a special line for those who prefer to kneel, or perhaps ask those who wish to kneel to wait until last, and then come forward to kneel and receive Holy Communion. That would eliminate the tripping hazard for people like me.
The Bible says that we should look out for the interests of others and always to esteem others as more important than ourselves. I think we should all remember that.