TBCrawford
I will cherish your last heart filled post-filled with your belief in me and full of support from you.
By the Grace of God, through many tears held back, I held my head as high as I could today and went out to finish christmas stuff.
You have brought precious tears to my eyes…you have confirmed with your words through your sincere prayers that I am ok. I am not what they have done to me and my children.
Today I called my eldest son cause i could not get a hold of my ill son, He answered phone with a cheerful hello—when I said is ‘my (ill) son “” ok? Is he at your home ??? He responded
with NO! ’ He is in another place temporarily’ I said where? He said: " I won’t be telling you that’ sarcasticly…I screamed at him. I called my friend…told her.she said to call the police in that city…I figured How in the hek without any support or anyone standing beside me will they possibly believe (in that far away city) me? She is so confused at how and why my extended family could get away with so much. They never bothered with him before …only to hurt me.
I blessed myself…my stomach turning…I grab whatever strength i had and went out to finish for the children I have a home for christmas…in the car I prayed…our father, hail mary …most gracious virgin mary…i pleaded with God…to take care of my ill son…you know what i heard three times…‘I am here with you’ I wanted to hear He would take care of him keep him safe…and bring him home well.
I called my eldest son wife…when i got home…I never knew her before…I asked her to tell me where my son was…(as you can see, by what i write here…my eldest son made my ill son believe that he was staying at thier home for christmas…How horrifying for him…
my heart dropped…omg the cruelty…his wife is a perfect match i see for my eldest son,
who tried to express authority over me, well I may be weak and in pain…But I responded intelligently, direct…without reacting to her whatever you call that…she would not tell me.
when I first called i was pleasant to her …she told me its been aterrible day…our whole home flooded…I will not gloat over their sudden troubles…as God said in the bible …I will punish your enemies…adversies…I did not feel one bit of pity for them…they misled my ill son., and now I have come to find out through an email…from my ill son, that they put him in another shelter…omg…its christmas… I said to this girl at the end…you have no authority to demonstrate any power over my son! This is my son, who has been in my care since young who has been sick …she continued to be sarcastic.
Maybe i was wrong here, but I don’t believe the words i said were wrong…I told her------ you know your home being flooded -----that is the hand of God…In his anger at what you’s have done!!!
My eldest son …would be lucky to see this sign now…
my ill son last said the other nite…when i found him…that he was staying there for xmas
Did he know that after only one night, he would be transferred away?
My eldest son…never was a brother to ‘my ill son’…I know this must be another pain for my ill son…to have hoped his brother was actually caring about him.
It is horrific. I wrote My Ill son- back …through email…and told him we love him…and I will send a bus ticket for him at any moment. I know I cannot go through the same, but I cannot bare to know he is all alone …amongst strangers.
I did everything to do to get him help…and no one would help…him . I travelled to one place with no help. my doctor…she lied to me…she cannot comprehend my extended family and the harm they have done, to my oldest son, to me…and now to my ill son. She had the power to do something and told me should would 2 weeks ago…when he was closer she said she would have him sent to closer city ect…as that was my plan. to get him some help.so he would be home for Christmas.She lied…then left it with my family. you know at one point as I confided this in her for years…she said- I met your sister she doesn’t look like the kind of person that would do all these things yu have said. (that was another sister who is involved as well) as always they all dive in to attack me by any means …my younger son says they are jealous mom, cause your prettier then they are…smile…unfortunately it seems so…the jelousy which is derived from self hatred and imposed on another to fill their empty void. Jealousy is hatred…cruelty…it is because they are from the dysfunctional family…and parents that I escaped and still trying to escape from.
I hope to get out of this horrid place where i live soon. Looks like I await the angels to help me move.
TB Your words…will remain in my heart and my soul…and will give me new strength…Thankyou …
Thankyou for saying you and others will continue praying for my Son.
Pray that I will gain and keep the confidence that you tb have shown in me …and that I will be finally brought from the trap …of malicious cruelty.