Sj2017
Instead of being DIScouraged, take courage! The fact that you have been inspired to return is just one more blessing about to happen. Also, remember that the forces at work that kept you away from the Church are now REALLY hard at work to put roadblocks of fear, resentment, and rejection into your heart. St. Paul says, “Have NO anxiety whatever, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, make your requests known to God. Then the peace of God that surpsseses all understanding will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus. Finally, brothers whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is gracious, if there is any excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise, think about these things.” (Philippians 4:6-9) I go to this whenever I feel doubtful, and know that He cares for me; that if I do the next right thing, and bring everything to Him in prayer, all will be good.
Take heart, there is help, just keep asking!
PS.
spiritualdirection.com (their full website is easier to manage than mobile version) is a good resource, you might consider.