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Lexee15
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I guess I’m on here just to get some words of inspiration. I’m having a real hard day today. For anyone who doesn’t know my story, I’m trying to keep my marriage together after finding out about my husband’s multiple affairs his addictions to alcohol and gambling. We have a five month old son and I want to put this all in His hands but I don’t know anymore. I have good days and I have really bad days, like today. I think what I hate most is knowing that his actions still have an impact on me. For instance, his coming home late w/out a call, I just wish I could feel like it doesn’t bother me. I hate that his actions can determine my mood, I wish I didn’t care, I ask God for his guidance, his consolation, his patience and mostly his peace, all I want to do is His will, but it’s so hard to be strong all of the time. I wish I had someone that could take the burden for a little while, I don’t want to be strong anymore, I don’t want to do the right thing, I don’t want to be loving, I don’t want to carry my cross or carry it quietly and with resignation!!! Please tell me these feelings will pass and that things will work out, I just feel so helpless and alone .