Loving God

[marica_mandic]

I did not have nice childhood also like you.
I do not have trust in my Earth mother and father today,
but I trust Heaven Father and Virgin Mary.
They do not make mistakes like we in the Earth

 

[Scorpio]

Hi,

It seems you’re in a lot of pain over this… one question, do you trust God? A lot of these sorts of problems can be resolved through trust.

I guarantee if you are alive God wanted you to be born.

Try to think of the reasons God would have wanted you to be born… no matter how difficult this life is, He created us to know Him, to have the joy of knowing Him. If you have not experienced that joy, try to just believe in it. Trust Him

A good book is “Consoling the Heart of Jesus” by Fr Michael Gaitley it might be helpful…

God bless!!

That is what I’m trying to do: Love and Trust God. But it’s difficult when you don’t feel grateful for your own existence . This is hindering my relationship with God in a BIG way. I know this sounds so harsh but one can’t just command for these sentiments - they have to come naturally. Please include me in your prayers if you can as I’m feeling spiritually tired Life is so meaningless without God that much I know for sure !

 

[JRKH]

That is what I’m trying to do: Love and Trust God. But it’s difficult when you don’t feel grateful for your own existence . This is hindering my relationship with God in a BIG way. I know this sounds so harsh but one can’t just command for these sentiments - they have to come naturally. Please include me in your prayers if you can as I’m feeling spiritually tired Life is so meaningless without God that much I know for sure !

I understand this quite well. Especially the Spiritually tired aspect.
What I have discovered is that this can sometimes occur because we “try too hard”.
We try too hard because we want so desperately to be near to God.
And yet - our very effort becomes a barrier becuase we are trying too hard to control things (in my case) or because we are fighting against some personal demon like depression and self esteem issues (like in your case).
You are absolutely right. It IS a BIG hinderance.

The solution is as deceptively simple in see in principle as it is difficult to put in action.
That is - Letting go - accepting ourselves - and giving ourselves over to God. Resting in God’s Love - even when we don’t necessarily feel it, and letting God’s Love come to us.

So - Dear one. Even though you do not feel greatful for your existance, can you accept it as God’s Will? Can you accept that God does want you to exist? Can you simply and humbly say to God:
“Father I don’t know why you created me, for I am a poor and unworthy servant, but I accept that you do not create life for no purpose. I therefore accept that there is some purpose for my existance, though it’s meaning elludes me. Take, therefore, the existance of this your unworthy servant and turn it to your glory.
May my hands always do your will
May my thoughts always please you
May my activities always give glory to your name.
May my sufferings benefit those in the gravest need.
Heavenly Father, I have no strength in these things and rely entirely on your Love and grace, even when I do not feel them. Therefore most Loving Father, when I am weak, lost, and at my wits end, please, just don’t let go of me. Hold me in your Loving arms and let me rest.
Amen”

May the above be of comfort to you as it is to me.

Peace
James

 

[marica_mandic]

I understand this quite well. Especially the Spiritually tired aspect.
What I have discovered is that this can sometimes occur because we “try too hard”.
We try too hard because we want so desperately to be near to God.
And yet - our very effort becomes a barrier becuase we are trying too hard to control things (in my case) or because we are fighting against some personal demon like depression and self esteem issues (like in your case).
You are absolutely right. It IS a BIG hinderance.

The solution is as deceptively simple in see in principle as it is difficult to put in action.
That is - Letting go - accepting ourselves - and giving ourselves over to God. Resting in God’s Love - even when we don’t necessarily feel it, and letting God’s Love come to us.

So - Dear one. Even though you do not feel greatful for your existance, can you accept it as God’s Will? Can you accept that God does want you to exist? Can you simply and humbly say to God:
“Father I don’t know why you created me, for I am a poor and unworthy servant, but I accept that you do not create life for no purpose. I therefore accept that there is some purpose for my existance, though it’s meaning elludes me. Take, therefore, the existance of this your unworthy servant and turn it to your glory.
May my hands always do your will
May my thoughts always please you
May my activities always give glory to your name.
May my sufferings benefit those in the gravest need.
Heavenly Father, I have no strength in these things and rely entirely on your Love and grace, even when I do not feel them. Therefore most Loving Father, when I am weak, lost, and at my wits end, please, just don’t let go of me. Hold me in your Loving arms and let me rest.
Amen”

May the above be of comfort to you as it is to me.

Peace
James

Maybe spiritual exercise will help.
They helped me.
In your country , someone has knowledge of Ignacio spiritual exercises.

 

[Edward_H]

That is what I’m trying to do: Love and Trust God. But it’s difficult when you don’t feel grateful for your own existence . This is hindering my relationship with God in a BIG way. I know this sounds so harsh but one can’t just command for these sentiments - they have to come naturally. Please include me in your prayers if you can as I’m feeling spiritually tired Life is so meaningless without God that much I know for sure !

A wonderful priest once told me…when I told him that I had messed up all week at work…and had nothing to offer God from all that activity…he said “Fine, fine…well give God all that [my botched work]; He can convert it into anything He wants…but give it to Him with the heart of a child”.

That week’s worth was “hindering my relationship” (those are your words, Scorpio) with God.

Your lack of gratefulness (your struggle) is in the way. I think you might want to sincerely sit down, preferably in the presence of the Blessed Sacrament, and converse with God about this hindrance. Offer it to Him for a week…tell Him…Lord I freely give you my lack of gratefulness this week. Don’t let me take it back. Give me instead a deeper sense of humility, give me the awe of life in your heart. "

Something like that. Give Him what is separating you. Offer it to Him. And when you offer someone something…you no longer have it to fumble over.

But pray to Him…converse with Him as you’ve conversed with us…naturally, sincerely. Tell Him these things.

And it would help to focus less on you and more on Him, and others.

God bless your efforts. Be little, like a child.

 

[JRKH]

Edward - I really like what you say above…

marica - The Spiritual excersizes might indeed be a good idea…Though I’m not sure that they are something to be taken on independant of a spiritual director. I know that there are retreats and such devoted to this.
Perhaps others could give more details and insights.

Peace
James

 

[marica_mandic]

Edward - I really like what you say above…

marica - The Spiritual excersizes might indeed be a good idea…Though I’m not sure that they are something to be taken on independant of a spiritual director. I know that there are retreats and such devoted to this.
Perhaps others could give more details and insights.

Peace
James

Happy Easter James!
Yes I know with good teacher everything goes better.
I will try to do excessizes in good organization.