Though I’m technically a Catholic, there were very serious questions for me during a period of my life and they are only now beginning to be resolved. And quite frankly, I wouldn’t and still don’t discuss the reasons why all this happened. That reticence is because I quickly discovered that few, actually no, people in the Church had any clue as to what I was talking about as far as my interior experience. Now I know better, but the people or Saints who clearly have a handle on what my concerns were. But even they were or are being given difficulties by the Church despite some of them now being Doctors of the Church. So in some instances there is something broken in the chain of information, largely I believe, because it is all about learned belief, and not so much genuine contemplative, mystical or graced experience,
It was very disconcerting to me that Catholicism din’t address my real concerns, or at least that the ideas necessary for my progress were so remote and restricted, that it turned out that it was thorough non=catholic means that my questions were addressed. It is for this reason that I have been pretty adamant that while the Church may serve very well as a religious format for many, and more than that for some, it does not immediately and publicly address certain phases of the spiritual maturation phenomena that one might experience. This can be seen in its history of how it dealt with certain individuals who became saints. And it is my opinion that, since I have met a number of folks with nearly an identical version of my problem, the Church is chasing away numerous individuals who could in fact become its strongest pillars.
So what I might add is that due to a number of considerations that I will not go into here, it appears that there is what one might call a “basic operating system” of the human, whom we can acknowledge is “made in the image and likeness of God.” Now God, personally, is not a Roman Catholic, else we would not recognize the different rites of the Church, nor would we conduct ecumenical or missionary activities. The assumption is that there is a basic pattern that renders everyone, regardless or status, salvable. Only we tend, since we are Catholic, and feel through dogma and tradition, that ours is the single-most way of attaining heaven.
That is well and good, and the Church in its awesome intellectual capacity has reasoned why this can appear to be so. And yet there is, experientially, a distinction between theory and practice. So my “way” has been to explore the underlying structure of human composition over which which Catholicism, or any faith, can be superimposed and felt to be actually a paradigm that corresponds to reality.
But as I said, for the vast majority of folks, faith as it is presented by the public and institutional Church is very adequate and very useful. It just didn’t go far enough for me in my hour of need.